Its 2.07am. Yeah the header describes how i feel now :)
Met Yat at Gombak MRT around 1pm. Bought takeaway mee goreng with long beans and ciggies [2nd time bought legal ciggies! Happy ah siol! LOL! If you were in my shoes, you'll know how awesome it feels to have legal ciggies instead of contraband ones], ate and smoke somewhere nearby. After that walked to Bukit Batok Interchange and bus-ed to Queensway. He bought his new skate shoes. Da happy ah budak tuu ^.^
Then headed to IKEA and bought hotdog+soft drinks for 2 bucks! Ohemmgee so cheap! Ate and bus-ed to Bugis. Walked to 7-11 and he bought his Guiness Stout. We shared cause i don't like beer much and i dont like to mix with Redbull. LOL. Walked to FAD Media and Mondre ran to me and gave me a hug. She has 2 labrets already. Heh i missed mine. Gahh.
Saw Alice, Goregirl and Era. And a few more others.
OMFG Alice so cuteee! ^.^
Saw Iszwan and another girl with him there. Didnt bother talking to him cause he already has another girl and he doesnt wanna talk to me so whatever.
Sat at the curb and drank and smoke. Not long after, it started raining. Heavily. Went to the shade at FAD and Goregirl kecohh. Stand in the rain like theres no rain. LOL.
Me and Yat talked and talked for god knows how long till Liya came out. Ahhh! Hugged her. Missed her like crazy laaaahh.
Talked and crapped around :D
Then Yat and me borrowed her and Zacky's tics and went in. The set before IKilledKenny was goooood :D IKilledKenny was awesome. Smiled like some jackass when they played Lie to my face by Carnifex and Entombment of a machine by JFAC. I started singing along. Hahaha :D
Saw only 2 or 3 bands then about 8.30pm, bus-ed to Raffles [Kyle was supposed to meet up but last minute he texted me he cant come -.-'] to eat PROPER dinner. Nasi Ayam Penyet. It got Yat and me high. We are fun and you're not. K whatever :)
After that bought Big Gulp and went to Esplanade to meet Yat's friends. Lepak at Esplanade for awhile then bus-ed to Bukit Batok and walked to Gombak MRT.
Well today was awesome, we actually had PROPER ciggies, PROPER dinner, and a PROPER fun day :D
Got home and the whole house was messy. Stupid lil sister. Had to clean up the house and that explains the late blog post. Heh.
Dharsh, imy and ily hell lots bestiee! See you real soon baby!
Yat, i love you as a really close friend. Thanks for everything today. Really appreciate it :)
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Fuck your pride, ego and greed!
To K's girlfie:
Like i said, im not angry at you. How many times do you want me to say it? Yes im still waiting for him and no, you can't stop me from doing so, ty.
I want him but i dont want him. You've had this feeling before right?
Trust me, this thing wont last long until you get to see his true colours. Like how i did. The first few months will be sweet, of course. Wait till the 5th month and you'll see what i mean when i say his prangai mcm sial.
Back to the bright side :)
Meeting Yat later to catch Comic Strip gig at Esplanade Waterfront. And he is otw here and i havent dry my hair and all the girly stuff and how the fuckk can i still blog??? LOLOL.
Yeah will update more soon.
Dharsh, we are so going for a major shopping spree after your o levels!
Nicole, im gonna puke on you and Ian when i go to KL on Countdown 2010. Hahahahahaha! K kidding :D
Ax, I miss you.
Daddy, i really missed you. Where you've been? :/
Like i said, im not angry at you. How many times do you want me to say it? Yes im still waiting for him and no, you can't stop me from doing so, ty.
I want him but i dont want him. You've had this feeling before right?
Trust me, this thing wont last long until you get to see his true colours. Like how i did. The first few months will be sweet, of course. Wait till the 5th month and you'll see what i mean when i say his prangai mcm sial.
Back to the bright side :)
Meeting Yat later to catch Comic Strip gig at Esplanade Waterfront. And he is otw here and i havent dry my hair and all the girly stuff and how the fuckk can i still blog??? LOLOL.
Yeah will update more soon.
Dharsh, we are so going for a major shopping spree after your o levels!
Nicole, im gonna puke on you and Ian when i go to KL on Countdown 2010. Hahahahahaha! K kidding :D
Ax, I miss you.
Daddy, i really missed you. Where you've been? :/
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Numb and lifeless
Its 1.15am. Feeling fucking numb and moodless but i'll just fucking blog anyway.
1) No mood cause i commented Ax and he was back already and commented Dharshy instead. Thanks for making me feel shitty again ehh. Seriously, am i sucha loser to you guys? I guess so.
2) Am still friggin hungry. Sorry la i got a big tummehh.
3) No one is gonna accompany me for Corefest 2 :(
4) No job = No life :'(
5) Insomnia is being a bitch to me.
On a brighter note..
Met Yat at SP and went to Redhill. Arrived and went to search for Ananas Cafe but don't have. Yat treat me to tuna and ham sandwich :) [Thank you! Heh.] While he had some funny looking rectangle lookalike pizza thingy. Hahahaha :D
Smoke for awhile. Walked to the Bossini headquaters. You see. Semangat tau nak carik keje. Nak carik duit for blanje and tolong mak. Heh. All thanks to Yat for making the appointment so early in the morning. LOL.
Had to walk one big round. Its near some industrial estate uh. Heh.
After that, bus-ed to blakang Penin and walked to 7-11 to buy Big Gulp. Felt refreshed. Ahhhh. Then sat outside 7-11 and talk cock and smoke. Wanted to buy the funnyfaces biscuit thingy but i waited till night. Walked to Esplanade and sit at the Waterfront and smoke, chilled and listen to some old pop songs while waiting for Laurence to come. Waited till 6 plus. Laurence came and went off to Marina Square. Walked around and Laurence bought a tee from Topshop. Went outside at Marina's steps and sat there for awhile. Talked and Laurence suggested we drink. Walked to 7-11 and bought 2 cans of Anchor beer. Went to the same spot and drank. We all started talking crap. LOmuthafuckingL. Talked about his trip to Aus and r/s. We 3 seem to think alike about r/s. It sucks. No, wait.
LOVE DOESN'T SUCK. ITS REJECTION AND LOSING SOMEONE THAT HURTS.
About 10pm we moved off. Parted with Laurence and walked to bus stop near Penin. Wanted to buy the funnyfaces biscuit thingy but the shop closed already. Hahahahaha. Bus arrived and slept like a pig on the bus leaning on Yat's shoulders.
Found something and was hyper already. LOmuthafuckinL :D
Walked to Gombak MRT and bought Big Gulp and some chips. As usual, got hyper and slide dowwwwwn. HAHAHAHAHAHA fucking random sia!
Parted w Yat around nearly 12am. Went home. And here i am :) Awesome day today even though we're dead broke.
1) No mood cause i commented Ax and he was back already and commented Dharshy instead. Thanks for making me feel shitty again ehh. Seriously, am i sucha loser to you guys? I guess so.
2) Am still friggin hungry. Sorry la i got a big tummehh.
3) No one is gonna accompany me for Corefest 2 :(
4) No job = No life :'(
5) Insomnia is being a bitch to me.
On a brighter note..
Met Yat at SP and went to Redhill. Arrived and went to search for Ananas Cafe but don't have. Yat treat me to tuna and ham sandwich :) [Thank you! Heh.] While he had some funny looking rectangle lookalike pizza thingy. Hahahaha :D
Smoke for awhile. Walked to the Bossini headquaters. You see. Semangat tau nak carik keje. Nak carik duit for blanje and tolong mak. Heh. All thanks to Yat for making the appointment so early in the morning. LOL.
Had to walk one big round. Its near some industrial estate uh. Heh.
After that, bus-ed to blakang Penin and walked to 7-11 to buy Big Gulp. Felt refreshed. Ahhhh. Then sat outside 7-11 and talk cock and smoke. Wanted to buy the funnyfaces biscuit thingy but i waited till night. Walked to Esplanade and sit at the Waterfront and smoke, chilled and listen to some old pop songs while waiting for Laurence to come. Waited till 6 plus. Laurence came and went off to Marina Square. Walked around and Laurence bought a tee from Topshop. Went outside at Marina's steps and sat there for awhile. Talked and Laurence suggested we drink. Walked to 7-11 and bought 2 cans of Anchor beer. Went to the same spot and drank. We all started talking crap. LOmuthafuckingL. Talked about his trip to Aus and r/s. We 3 seem to think alike about r/s. It sucks. No, wait.
LOVE DOESN'T SUCK. ITS REJECTION AND LOSING SOMEONE THAT HURTS.
About 10pm we moved off. Parted with Laurence and walked to bus stop near Penin. Wanted to buy the funnyfaces biscuit thingy but the shop closed already. Hahahahaha. Bus arrived and slept like a pig on the bus leaning on Yat's shoulders.
Found something and was hyper already. LOmuthafuckinL :D
Walked to Gombak MRT and bought Big Gulp and some chips. As usual, got hyper and slide dowwwwwn. HAHAHAHAHAHA fucking random sia!
Parted w Yat around nearly 12am. Went home. And here i am :) Awesome day today even though we're dead broke.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Relationships suck balls!
Its 4.19am and yeah im bored hahaha :D
Passed by Kai's girlf blog. No im not angry at you. You just have no idea how much it hurts when he said 'Let's just be friends, okay?'
And you have no clue of the agony/pain i went through to win him back by losing everything i had.
And yeah it still hurts now.
It's easy for you to say 'move on.' but i sure as hell can't. I tried so hard but i still can't. You've been in my situation before so yeah you know how it feels :)
So many promises unfulfilled, so many memories unforgotten. It is etched like a tatoo in my heart and i'll never be able to let go of it.
He even told me countless times he's serious about me. We even went to JB together w his mum to get his old skool shoe. And my red checkered shirt is still w him and i want it back asap.
Just don't be surprised if he did/said things to you you thought he wouldn't do/say.
All the best babe and keep rockin' \m/
Next.
On a brighter note, Met Yat and found a new place to slack. Little Guilin 'field'. Its like a huge spot and you can actually see the 2nd floor of Gombak MRT. We arrived there and as usual, smoke and talk crap. Then we lie down. Shiok. I lie on his tummehh. Like pillow :) Turned on lagu Emily by FFTL and sang along. Sumpah shiok ah :D
About 11.30pm, moved off. Was feeling damn sleepy idk why hahaha but reached home, can't sleep.
Yayy in a few hours ima meet Yat again at SP then off to Redhill for Bossini's interview. I need a muthafuckin job la cb! >.<
But idk what to wear. Haha whatever.
Made a new friend on MySpace. His name is Kay. He's nice. Heheheh ^.^
Thinking of going to KL at the end of the year for 2010 countdown. Anyone wanna come? :D
Ax still not back yet. Sad ahh :(
I want spiderbites! Then can get matching piercings w Nicole [Bestie's girlfie :D]. She has angelbites.
I miss going to school. I miss the times getting stressed up w tests and studying. I miss my bubble tea. I miss Dharsh and Yat. And most of all,
I MISSED BURGERKILL'S GIG LAST SATURDAY!!
Fuck la.
Last minute plan to go job hunting again cause Remy never reply.
Oh and i stole a banana hanging outside from one of the fruit shop near my house. Gosh i want more bananas!
Heh im weird in the wee hours of the morning :D
Nites yo!
Passed by Kai's girlf blog. No im not angry at you. You just have no idea how much it hurts when he said 'Let's just be friends, okay?'
And you have no clue of the agony/pain i went through to win him back by losing everything i had.
And yeah it still hurts now.
It's easy for you to say 'move on.' but i sure as hell can't. I tried so hard but i still can't. You've been in my situation before so yeah you know how it feels :)
So many promises unfulfilled, so many memories unforgotten. It is etched like a tatoo in my heart and i'll never be able to let go of it.
He even told me countless times he's serious about me. We even went to JB together w his mum to get his old skool shoe. And my red checkered shirt is still w him and i want it back asap.
Just don't be surprised if he did/said things to you you thought he wouldn't do/say.
All the best babe and keep rockin' \m/
Next.
On a brighter note, Met Yat and found a new place to slack. Little Guilin 'field'. Its like a huge spot and you can actually see the 2nd floor of Gombak MRT. We arrived there and as usual, smoke and talk crap. Then we lie down. Shiok. I lie on his tummehh. Like pillow :) Turned on lagu Emily by FFTL and sang along. Sumpah shiok ah :D
About 11.30pm, moved off. Was feeling damn sleepy idk why hahaha but reached home, can't sleep.
Yayy in a few hours ima meet Yat again at SP then off to Redhill for Bossini's interview. I need a muthafuckin job la cb! >.<
But idk what to wear. Haha whatever.
Made a new friend on MySpace. His name is Kay. He's nice. Heheheh ^.^
Thinking of going to KL at the end of the year for 2010 countdown. Anyone wanna come? :D
Ax still not back yet. Sad ahh :(
I want spiderbites! Then can get matching piercings w Nicole [Bestie's girlfie :D]. She has angelbites.
I miss going to school. I miss the times getting stressed up w tests and studying. I miss my bubble tea. I miss Dharsh and Yat. And most of all,
I MISSED BURGERKILL'S GIG LAST SATURDAY!!
Fuck la.
Last minute plan to go job hunting again cause Remy never reply.
Oh and i stole a banana hanging outside from one of the fruit shop near my house. Gosh i want more bananas!
Heh im weird in the wee hours of the morning :D
Nites yo!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Chungaaayyy la dey! CHUNGAAYYYY!
hello. Im bored so i'll blog :)
Its 4.25am and was supposed to sleep early cause im gg to do important things later. Gahh.
As usual, met Yat again. This time for dinner. LOmuthafuckinL. Slack, smoke, talk alot of random crap. Heh. Lepak at the usual place, West Mall, Guilin and 'slide'.
He is soooo fun to slack with. My slacking/drinking buddyyy! :D
And i found out my previous ex, Kai, is attached AGAIN. This time, to someone i used to know/slack with. No shocker there. They were best friends anyway. Hope they WON'T last long and may he NEVER get another girlf again. No, seriously. WHICH GIRL CAN STAND HIS MUTHAFUCKIN CHILDISH/CONTROLLING/JEALOUS TO THE CORE/PRANGAI TAK PERLU ATTITUDE????!!! Im so cruel hahahahaha :D
Hmm a few hours ago Yat sent me a text msg saying some things that were meant to be said when you're drunk/tipsy but i guess he is. Tipsy on train aircon and too much ciggies. LOmuthafuckinL.
Yayy meeting Dharsh the bestie later! Then about 5pm, she has to go home. Alaaaaaa bestie why go home so fast :(
Then have to meet Yat cause he is accompanying me for some job thingy at GAP at Wisma Atria.
Eh Yat chungaaaayyy, thanks for everything from all the laughters to the job hunting thingy :D
People, pray for me i'll get the job! I need to work so badly and i don't want to depend on mum anymore cause she has had enough to deal with already. Gahh :/
Hmm i miss talking to Ax. And ohemgee i don't like Jet! He's so muthafuckin cruel! One minute he says he misses me, the next minute he calls me a loser. Well he doesn't know how sensitive i am when people call me names, so whatever.
Then why the fuck he say he miss me???! Knncb.
Ah guys and their allwordsnoaction nonsense.
Fuck 'em all! [except Ax and Yat!]
Im so gonna get bubble tea later w bestestbestestbestiesferlife :D
Kk gonna watch more teevee till i fall asleep.
Nights and morning nigguhs!
XD
Its 4.25am and was supposed to sleep early cause im gg to do important things later. Gahh.
As usual, met Yat again. This time for dinner. LOmuthafuckinL. Slack, smoke, talk alot of random crap. Heh. Lepak at the usual place, West Mall, Guilin and 'slide'.
He is soooo fun to slack with. My slacking/drinking buddyyy! :D
And i found out my previous ex, Kai, is attached AGAIN. This time, to someone i used to know/slack with. No shocker there. They were best friends anyway. Hope they WON'T last long and may he NEVER get another girlf again. No, seriously. WHICH GIRL CAN STAND HIS MUTHAFUCKIN CHILDISH/CONTROLLING/JEALOUS TO THE CORE/PRANGAI TAK PERLU ATTITUDE????!!! Im so cruel hahahahaha :D
Hmm a few hours ago Yat sent me a text msg saying some things that were meant to be said when you're drunk/tipsy but i guess he is. Tipsy on train aircon and too much ciggies. LOmuthafuckinL.
Yayy meeting Dharsh the bestie later! Then about 5pm, she has to go home. Alaaaaaa bestie why go home so fast :(
Then have to meet Yat cause he is accompanying me for some job thingy at GAP at Wisma Atria.
Eh Yat chungaaaayyy, thanks for everything from all the laughters to the job hunting thingy :D
People, pray for me i'll get the job! I need to work so badly and i don't want to depend on mum anymore cause she has had enough to deal with already. Gahh :/
Hmm i miss talking to Ax. And ohemgee i don't like Jet! He's so muthafuckin cruel! One minute he says he misses me, the next minute he calls me a loser. Well he doesn't know how sensitive i am when people call me names, so whatever.
Then why the fuck he say he miss me???! Knncb.
Ah guys and their allwordsnoaction nonsense.
Fuck 'em all! [except Ax and Yat!]
Im so gonna get bubble tea later w bestestbestestbestiesferlife :D
Kk gonna watch more teevee till i fall asleep.
Nights and morning nigguhs!
XD
Thursday, May 21, 2009
To Dharshy BFF (L)
Hey hun :)
No, you're not fat. Even Alice and Yat says you're preety. Fuck the guys who dissapear when they got to know me through you. They are jerks, complete bullmuthafuckingshit.
That proves what fuckers guys can be.
And im sorry if i was being a bitch to you. I just can't help it when i went to Ax's profile. I just wanted to blow up but i kept my composure. He treats us the same but you know how much i use to like him right? But i really can't take it last night i cried. Im sorry if i was being ignorant and stubborn. The stubborn part is just me. Even Kai once said im stubborn as fuck :)
The modelling thing picks people from all shapes and sizes darling. I saw their portfolio. People of all sizes and ages.
But now, i can't be bothered about looks alr. If people were to depend on looks to find a girlf/boyf or friends, those people are full of shit. Full of muthafucking egomaniacs.
Im always sad cause i feel like i don't belong in this family. I try to talk to mum but she always screams back at me. Especially when i talk to her nicely. And don't ask about my sis, she doesn't understand these things.
Im always sad cause my grandma passed away. Yeah im still sad about it. She's the only one who can actually understand me sincerely. And i can never have her back. When i complain to her about mum, she understands and she actually gives advice on how to get back at mum. LOL.
Im always sad cause i got no life. Ask Yat. We've been job hunting every weekend and this week is gonna be the other half of Orchard Road. Next week is hotels. Sigh.
Im always sad cause when i look at you, you have a decent roof over your head, food on the table and money to spend. Whereas i don't. I sleep in someone else'e house and have to pay a rent of $400 a month which is a heavy burden for my mum and i really wanna help out but no one wants to fucking hire me!
And sometimes i don't eat for days to save up for weekend expenses to find a fucking job.
Im always angry cause i got it from my dad i guess. Seeing physical and verbal abuses hurled at me, my mum and sister everyday. I think i swear alot cause of the abuses a few years back i guess.
Im always angry cause im mad at myself. Mad at myself for making mum dissapointed in me. Mad at myself for quitting school for that dumbfuck jackass loser. Mad at myself for falling in love so easily. Mad at myself for treating you like shit even tho you were there for me through tough times. Not literally but getting your texts when im down really made me smile. Mad at myself for avoiding you, Jet and Ax.
So yeah i guess you should know everything by now.
ILY BESTIE.
No, you're not fat. Even Alice and Yat says you're preety. Fuck the guys who dissapear when they got to know me through you. They are jerks, complete bullmuthafuckingshit.
That proves what fuckers guys can be.
And im sorry if i was being a bitch to you. I just can't help it when i went to Ax's profile. I just wanted to blow up but i kept my composure. He treats us the same but you know how much i use to like him right? But i really can't take it last night i cried. Im sorry if i was being ignorant and stubborn. The stubborn part is just me. Even Kai once said im stubborn as fuck :)
The modelling thing picks people from all shapes and sizes darling. I saw their portfolio. People of all sizes and ages.
But now, i can't be bothered about looks alr. If people were to depend on looks to find a girlf/boyf or friends, those people are full of shit. Full of muthafucking egomaniacs.
Im always sad cause i feel like i don't belong in this family. I try to talk to mum but she always screams back at me. Especially when i talk to her nicely. And don't ask about my sis, she doesn't understand these things.
Im always sad cause my grandma passed away. Yeah im still sad about it. She's the only one who can actually understand me sincerely. And i can never have her back. When i complain to her about mum, she understands and she actually gives advice on how to get back at mum. LOL.
Im always sad cause i got no life. Ask Yat. We've been job hunting every weekend and this week is gonna be the other half of Orchard Road. Next week is hotels. Sigh.
Im always sad cause when i look at you, you have a decent roof over your head, food on the table and money to spend. Whereas i don't. I sleep in someone else'e house and have to pay a rent of $400 a month which is a heavy burden for my mum and i really wanna help out but no one wants to fucking hire me!
And sometimes i don't eat for days to save up for weekend expenses to find a fucking job.
Im always angry cause i got it from my dad i guess. Seeing physical and verbal abuses hurled at me, my mum and sister everyday. I think i swear alot cause of the abuses a few years back i guess.
Im always angry cause im mad at myself. Mad at myself for making mum dissapointed in me. Mad at myself for quitting school for that dumbfuck jackass loser. Mad at myself for falling in love so easily. Mad at myself for treating you like shit even tho you were there for me through tough times. Not literally but getting your texts when im down really made me smile. Mad at myself for avoiding you, Jet and Ax.
So yeah i guess you should know everything by now.
ILY BESTIE.
Do not read this if you're fucking sensitive
Its 1.13am. Im in no mood to blog but i'll just blog anyway.
Today met Yat. Okehh okehh we meet everyday and lepak at 'slide', smoking our arse off and making lame yet funny jokes about big, old white men and horny banglas. LOL.
But today i wasn't in the mood when the day before i confessed to that certain someone :/
As usual, he shrugged it off. Typical of guys la.
How would you feel if the guy you liked posted a picture of your bestie on his profile? Obviously feel numb for awhile, then sad. Fucking sad. Then back to numb.
Best friends, heh. Oh god if only i could fucking believe it.
And yeah i've given up hope in everything now. On love and life. I don't have the mood to go job hunting or to any gigs currently. I don't think im going for Burgerkill's this friday or CoreFest 1 and 2 next week either.
Someone please save me from this torturous and fucked up life im having.
Screw all the guys out there [except for those close guy friends.].
Why is it so hard for guys to accept girls for who they are??
Why is it so hard for guys to NOT give a fucking damn about how a girl fucking looks??
Why is it so hard to find a best friend whom you can fucking trust without them betraying/stabbing you in the fucking back??
Why is it so fucking easy to fall in love but so fucking hard to be in love??
Why is it so hard to find a decent boyf who wont treat you like fucking shit and control your every fucking move??
Why is it so hard for a mum to fucking give a damn about our fucking lives??
Why is it so hard to forget the ex boyf's and crying over losing them??
Why is it so fucking hard to fucking move on??
Fuck your superinhumanuniversesized fucking ego.
Fuck your preety fucking face.
Fuck your fucked up scene.
Fuck your attention seeking fucking attitude.
Fuck the political fucking shit.
Fuck stereotypes, judgemental fucking cunts.
Fuck stupid rules & regufuckinglations.
If you who terase, ITS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM.
Oh yeah, i remembered im fucking moodless.
So yeah. Im moodless now, so bye.
Today met Yat. Okehh okehh we meet everyday and lepak at 'slide', smoking our arse off and making lame yet funny jokes about big, old white men and horny banglas. LOL.
But today i wasn't in the mood when the day before i confessed to that certain someone :/
As usual, he shrugged it off. Typical of guys la.
How would you feel if the guy you liked posted a picture of your bestie on his profile? Obviously feel numb for awhile, then sad. Fucking sad. Then back to numb.
Best friends, heh. Oh god if only i could fucking believe it.
And yeah i've given up hope in everything now. On love and life. I don't have the mood to go job hunting or to any gigs currently. I don't think im going for Burgerkill's this friday or CoreFest 1 and 2 next week either.
Someone please save me from this torturous and fucked up life im having.
Screw all the guys out there [except for those close guy friends.].
Why is it so hard for guys to accept girls for who they are??
Why is it so hard for guys to NOT give a fucking damn about how a girl fucking looks??
Why is it so hard to find a best friend whom you can fucking trust without them betraying/stabbing you in the fucking back??
Why is it so fucking easy to fall in love but so fucking hard to be in love??
Why is it so hard to find a decent boyf who wont treat you like fucking shit and control your every fucking move??
Why is it so hard for a mum to fucking give a damn about our fucking lives??
Why is it so hard to forget the ex boyf's and crying over losing them??
Why is it so fucking hard to fucking move on??
Fuck your superinhumanuniversesized fucking ego.
Fuck your preety fucking face.
Fuck your fucked up scene.
Fuck your attention seeking fucking attitude.
Fuck the political fucking shit.
Fuck stereotypes, judgemental fucking cunts.
Fuck stupid rules & regufuckinglations.
If you who terase, ITS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM.
Oh yeah, i remembered im fucking moodless.
So yeah. Im moodless now, so bye.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Brutal breakdowwwwns
Booya!
Its 12.37am and im worn out. Still.
Me, Yat, Dee and her boyf drank Darwel at Fort Canning last Saturday. Idk wtf we did but i know NOTHING SEXUAL! Duh.
After 2 huge shots of that White Label, me and Yat sat at the swing. I cried a hell lot after listening to that one particular song cause of the break up w Iszwan till my eyeliner and mascara was bleeding alooooot.
Yat comforted me but ended up calling me ________. Ye lah. Drunken minds speak sober thoughts [sorry i mentioned this Yat!] That made me cry even more. Lol. Walked around looking for toilet and we were confirm da high, tipsy, drunk. Saw a signboard that said 'Slow Down' and me and Yat literally bent down and slowed down.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! LMFAO!
Me and him couldnt walk or think straight. Duh.
Then we walked down some stairs and saw a toilet sign. But got some pinoy looking people. Then we went in the toilet. It was fucking dark. No light.
Yat said i look like some dayak [like the north indians w face paint] -_-'
I remembered he shouted 'Sial la your face like fuck bodohh!'. Then he wiped my fucking messed up make up off w tap water for me. Lol.
I talked non stop to 3 of them for hours! Then we were tipsy so we walked around Fort Canning and left the lovebirds at the bench. We walked like swinging sideways. And talk about everything. Basically every single shit that happened in our lives. Then we went to some abandoned old looking house which was unenterable for some unknown reason. It was pitch black and thank god i wasnt thinking about anything supernatural. Lol.
Then a car passed by us and the couple inside look at us like one kind. Like want to kidnap us liddat. I was like wtff. Lol.
Then we semangat go and find cardboard boxes to slide down some hill. We took some 2 pizza boxes we found beside th bin then got alot red ants. Eww. We took the cardboard boxes and tried to slide but cannot fucking slide! Grr. Nevermind still got Sentosa, so chill 8)
Then we talk cock, shout here shout there until a bunch of matreps approached us and luckily for Dee's boyf, he said i was drunk -_-' Thanks ehh. Lol.
Then about 6 we moved off to Adelphi and we lie down there like we own the place. The floor was cold and we listened to songs. Then about 7 we moved off. Dee and her boyf went home and Me and Yat stayed. We walked to Citylink underground and slept there till like 10am. Walked back to Cityhall MRT and slept all the way. The moment my butt touched the seat, i fell asleep leaning on the train wall. Then Yat kept waking me up at certain points and it wasnt Bukit Gombakk yet laaaa! Slept back. Yat told me i slept like some crumpled skeleton and i snored loud. Bedekk ahhh! Well unfortunately, i DID snore in the fucking train.
Thats all for Sat. Memorable giler! :D
If only Dharsh and Liya were there. Confirm kecoh rabakk nye! Heheheheh :D :D
Well today, nth much. Slack w Yat at 'slide'. Heh :)
But it was fun hanging out w Yat. Always making jokes that were lame yet funny rabakk.
Kk update later yawww!
& i miss Ax.
Its 12.37am and im worn out. Still.
Me, Yat, Dee and her boyf drank Darwel at Fort Canning last Saturday. Idk wtf we did but i know NOTHING SEXUAL! Duh.
After 2 huge shots of that White Label, me and Yat sat at the swing. I cried a hell lot after listening to that one particular song cause of the break up w Iszwan till my eyeliner and mascara was bleeding alooooot.
Yat comforted me but ended up calling me ________. Ye lah. Drunken minds speak sober thoughts [sorry i mentioned this Yat!] That made me cry even more. Lol. Walked around looking for toilet and we were confirm da high, tipsy, drunk. Saw a signboard that said 'Slow Down' and me and Yat literally bent down and slowed down.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! LMFAO!
Me and him couldnt walk or think straight. Duh.
Then we walked down some stairs and saw a toilet sign. But got some pinoy looking people. Then we went in the toilet. It was fucking dark. No light.
Yat said i look like some dayak [like the north indians w face paint] -_-'
I remembered he shouted 'Sial la your face like fuck bodohh!'. Then he wiped my fucking messed up make up off w tap water for me. Lol.
I talked non stop to 3 of them for hours! Then we were tipsy so we walked around Fort Canning and left the lovebirds at the bench. We walked like swinging sideways. And talk about everything. Basically every single shit that happened in our lives. Then we went to some abandoned old looking house which was unenterable for some unknown reason. It was pitch black and thank god i wasnt thinking about anything supernatural. Lol.
Then a car passed by us and the couple inside look at us like one kind. Like want to kidnap us liddat. I was like wtff. Lol.
Then we semangat go and find cardboard boxes to slide down some hill. We took some 2 pizza boxes we found beside th bin then got alot red ants. Eww. We took the cardboard boxes and tried to slide but cannot fucking slide! Grr. Nevermind still got Sentosa, so chill 8)
Then we talk cock, shout here shout there until a bunch of matreps approached us and luckily for Dee's boyf, he said i was drunk -_-' Thanks ehh. Lol.
Then about 6 we moved off to Adelphi and we lie down there like we own the place. The floor was cold and we listened to songs. Then about 7 we moved off. Dee and her boyf went home and Me and Yat stayed. We walked to Citylink underground and slept there till like 10am. Walked back to Cityhall MRT and slept all the way. The moment my butt touched the seat, i fell asleep leaning on the train wall. Then Yat kept waking me up at certain points and it wasnt Bukit Gombakk yet laaaa! Slept back. Yat told me i slept like some crumpled skeleton and i snored loud. Bedekk ahhh! Well unfortunately, i DID snore in the fucking train.
Thats all for Sat. Memorable giler! :D
If only Dharsh and Liya were there. Confirm kecoh rabakk nye! Heheheheh :D :D
Well today, nth much. Slack w Yat at 'slide'. Heh :)
But it was fun hanging out w Yat. Always making jokes that were lame yet funny rabakk.
Kk update later yawww!
& i miss Ax.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Booyaa!
Hello bloggey and readers!
Its 11.39pm and wow im super early sia. Lol.
Met Yat at under my block at 2 plus. Slack at nearby MacD and smoke. Talk alot of crap, smoke here, smoke there. Walked around. He needed another 50cents to buy rokok gulong. LOL. I went up to grab the coins and went down then i go buy bubble tea. Then walked w him to mama shop near West Mall to buy his rokok. Walked to some block near West Mall and slack, sit there. Chill.
About 7 plus, moved to Little Guilin. Talk alot of shitcrapass [nigguhhh! LMAO!] then smoke a hell lot of gulong. [sial uh the red stormking made me feel so high, my throat hurts and my head spins like nutfuck] then did some funny things. Like seriously funny!
EH I SAY FUNNY RIGHT??? YOU DONT KNOW FUNNY UH????!!! LAUGH BEFORE I FUCK YOUR MUM!!!
Lol.
Then about 10pm moved to the 'slide'. We smoke there then had fun with the 'slide'.
We were a bunch of grown ups acting like little kids! Wtffff??!! Slide here, slide there, slide frontword, slide backwards, slide sidewards. Sumpahh klakar giler laaa! :D
Then about 11pm we moved off. And here i am :)
Thanks for today and the whole week Yat. Thanks alot for entertaining me with your sick jokes, funny walking and the 'deyyyyyy....'
LOL!
Kk so tmrw, gonna do some serious job hunting and recording. Malam we go adventuring for 'slides' then we use cardboard to go down the hill. Heh.
And this part is for Dharsh.
Baby, dont be sad. That guy is not worth your time or effort. He is only showing you what a jerk he is. What a nutfucker he is. So study and pass w flying colous [colours can fly uh??] then we go slack and we'll go sheesha-ing together, we'll go look out for cute white guys at Skatepark @ Somerset, take pictures w old people and laugh about nothing till we groww supa oldd. Okehh?? Smile hun. I hate seeing you so sad. Ily!
So basically my life now is like boring, i can say. With Iszwan out of my life, it brings me down big time i cant laugh at anymore sarcastic remarks :'(
Idk suddenly im tearing up. I guess its cause of...
Kk i dont wanna say. Dont wanna cry more.
Anyway, nights readers!
[Sarpino Pizza box reminds me of synthsizers and Ax :(]
Its 11.39pm and wow im super early sia. Lol.
Met Yat at under my block at 2 plus. Slack at nearby MacD and smoke. Talk alot of crap, smoke here, smoke there. Walked around. He needed another 50cents to buy rokok gulong. LOL. I went up to grab the coins and went down then i go buy bubble tea. Then walked w him to mama shop near West Mall to buy his rokok. Walked to some block near West Mall and slack, sit there. Chill.
About 7 plus, moved to Little Guilin. Talk alot of shitcrapass [nigguhhh! LMAO!] then smoke a hell lot of gulong. [sial uh the red stormking made me feel so high, my throat hurts and my head spins like nutfuck] then did some funny things. Like seriously funny!
EH I SAY FUNNY RIGHT??? YOU DONT KNOW FUNNY UH????!!! LAUGH BEFORE I FUCK YOUR MUM!!!
Lol.
Then about 10pm moved to the 'slide'. We smoke there then had fun with the 'slide'.
We were a bunch of grown ups acting like little kids! Wtffff??!! Slide here, slide there, slide frontword, slide backwards, slide sidewards. Sumpahh klakar giler laaa! :D
Then about 11pm we moved off. And here i am :)
Thanks for today and the whole week Yat. Thanks alot for entertaining me with your sick jokes, funny walking and the 'deyyyyyy....'
LOL!
Kk so tmrw, gonna do some serious job hunting and recording. Malam we go adventuring for 'slides' then we use cardboard to go down the hill. Heh.
And this part is for Dharsh.
Baby, dont be sad. That guy is not worth your time or effort. He is only showing you what a jerk he is. What a nutfucker he is. So study and pass w flying colous [colours can fly uh??] then we go slack and we'll go sheesha-ing together, we'll go look out for cute white guys at Skatepark @ Somerset, take pictures w old people and laugh about nothing till we groww supa oldd. Okehh?? Smile hun. I hate seeing you so sad. Ily!
So basically my life now is like boring, i can say. With Iszwan out of my life, it brings me down big time i cant laugh at anymore sarcastic remarks :'(
Idk suddenly im tearing up. I guess its cause of...
Kk i dont wanna say. Dont wanna cry more.
Anyway, nights readers!
[Sarpino Pizza box reminds me of synthsizers and Ax :(]
Forgive me
hello :)
Its 12.49am and i reached home half an hour ago. Early man. Lol.
Met Yat at Bukit Gombak MRT around 6 plus. Walked to West Mall to get bubble tea ^.^
Slack at the nearby scary looking park. Talk about stuff [Thanks for cheering me up. Im still kinda remorseful and sad tho. Thanks for the bubble tea, friend.].
I was tryna control my tears. And still am.
Walked around, smoke alot. Sat near street soccer, dgr lagu Emily from FFTL, ketawe rabak cause of Sonny Moore's voice like spitting alot sia. LOL.
Walked back to Little Guilin. Did alot of funny walks. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! :D
Reached, sit down, smoke, start sessioning. A few screwed up parts on the chorus but can manage.
He bought his laptop. Nak try on laptop got to know takde battery (Y)
Practiced again until 10 plus. Smoke here smoke there, slack, made funny sounds about gay americans and banglas. LMAO!
I walked home. He trained home. Duh. He borrrowed my sling bag. Nak step fierce konon ade Cannibal Corpes nye patch. LOLOL.
Ler. Baru Cannibal Corpes. HAHAHA!
When i reached home, finally..
MUM BOUGHT FOOD!
Ate, and here i am.
Iszwan, i nearly teared up when you sent me that text. I never wanted to break up w you in the first place. Why now? Why? I still love you but since you wanted the break, its okay. I'll try to move on but let me tell you its gonna be hard.
Great. Now i feel empty. Hollow as fuck.
Thanks for those memories. Even tho its short, they still mean alot to me.
Take care and till next time Iszwan :)
K this sat, going the job hunting w Yat again. Miss Selfridge never called back. Waste time sia go interview. Fuckass pinoy. Knncb.
After job hunting, gonna go recording at Beats. After that, drinking session. Who wanna join? Gonna drink King Robert or whatever name it is and tonning. So long sia never ton. LOL.
Kk nth much byeeee!
Its 12.49am and i reached home half an hour ago. Early man. Lol.
Met Yat at Bukit Gombak MRT around 6 plus. Walked to West Mall to get bubble tea ^.^
Slack at the nearby scary looking park. Talk about stuff [Thanks for cheering me up. Im still kinda remorseful and sad tho. Thanks for the bubble tea, friend.].
I was tryna control my tears. And still am.
Walked around, smoke alot. Sat near street soccer, dgr lagu Emily from FFTL, ketawe rabak cause of Sonny Moore's voice like spitting alot sia. LOL.
Walked back to Little Guilin. Did alot of funny walks. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! :D
Reached, sit down, smoke, start sessioning. A few screwed up parts on the chorus but can manage.
He bought his laptop. Nak try on laptop got to know takde battery (Y)
Practiced again until 10 plus. Smoke here smoke there, slack, made funny sounds about gay americans and banglas. LMAO!
I walked home. He trained home. Duh. He borrrowed my sling bag. Nak step fierce konon ade Cannibal Corpes nye patch. LOLOL.
Ler. Baru Cannibal Corpes. HAHAHA!
When i reached home, finally..
MUM BOUGHT FOOD!
Ate, and here i am.
Iszwan, i nearly teared up when you sent me that text. I never wanted to break up w you in the first place. Why now? Why? I still love you but since you wanted the break, its okay. I'll try to move on but let me tell you its gonna be hard.
Great. Now i feel empty. Hollow as fuck.
Thanks for those memories. Even tho its short, they still mean alot to me.
Take care and till next time Iszwan :)
K this sat, going the job hunting w Yat again. Miss Selfridge never called back. Waste time sia go interview. Fuckass pinoy. Knncb.
After job hunting, gonna go recording at Beats. After that, drinking session. Who wanna join? Gonna drink King Robert or whatever name it is and tonning. So long sia never ton. LOL.
Kk nth much byeeee!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
No, not now
heyheyhey :)
Its 4.40pm and im happily lazing around. Lol.
I don't think now is the time for me to be in a relationship. There's so many things i plan to do, i cant set a time for a date. No, really i cant.
I made a huge mistake. So now its time for me to face the music. Curse at me all you want. Go ahead. I know im in the wrong. Thanks for making me realize im nothing to you anymore.
Anyhoo, later gonna meet Yat to practice the originals for the recording this sat at Beats. Argh. Their songs are goooood :D but don't expect any brutalism like White Chapel or Suicide Silence. Its gonna be like Eyes Set To Kill kinda thing. I wonder where he get his inspiration from. Hmm.
And guess what? We're gonna practice at the scary mountain thingy. Little Guilin. Alot bangla tk perlu ovuhh there. LOL.
Btw, this sat me and Yat gonna go drinking. I think he bought the liquor alr. 60% of alchohol! Wahh shitman. Lol. Anybody willing to drink with us? Gonna drink at Fort Canning so if you want to, leave a comment and i'll contact you asap :)
The more the merrier okehh?
But i don't think anyone wanna follow. Fuckyeahh. Shit.
Hope to meet bestie tmrw. There's so many things i wish to say. Imy!
Kk update later. Nth much to say. Lol. K bye nigguhs!
Its 4.40pm and im happily lazing around. Lol.
I don't think now is the time for me to be in a relationship. There's so many things i plan to do, i cant set a time for a date. No, really i cant.
I made a huge mistake. So now its time for me to face the music. Curse at me all you want. Go ahead. I know im in the wrong. Thanks for making me realize im nothing to you anymore.
Anyhoo, later gonna meet Yat to practice the originals for the recording this sat at Beats. Argh. Their songs are goooood :D but don't expect any brutalism like White Chapel or Suicide Silence. Its gonna be like Eyes Set To Kill kinda thing. I wonder where he get his inspiration from. Hmm.
And guess what? We're gonna practice at the scary mountain thingy. Little Guilin. Alot bangla tk perlu ovuhh there. LOL.
Btw, this sat me and Yat gonna go drinking. I think he bought the liquor alr. 60% of alchohol! Wahh shitman. Lol. Anybody willing to drink with us? Gonna drink at Fort Canning so if you want to, leave a comment and i'll contact you asap :)
The more the merrier okehh?
But i don't think anyone wanna follow. Fuckyeahh. Shit.
Hope to meet bestie tmrw. There's so many things i wish to say. Imy!
Kk update later. Nth much to say. Lol. K bye nigguhs!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Smoke in yo' ass
hey.
Its 12.21am. Wow im early today.
Met Yat around 3 plus at SP today. AGAIN. He say got cca open house and get to eat free food cause got buffet. So met him at taxi stand, slack here slack there, settled at one coffee shop. Sit there, talk crap and bought ice blended dinosaur. Went back to SP at 5.45pm. Went to the Convention Center building but got talks uh. Pissed off got no free food, head to Bukit Gombak to get his ciggies.
After getting his ciggies, walked to West Mall and went to MacD. He blanja me cheeseburger and we went up. Looked to my right and saw....
MY FUCKING EX WITH HIS FRIENDS!!!!
I think his friend tego him that he saw me then he turned, looked at me for half a second, then turned back.
That was a total turn off for the day. Like fuck sia. The rest of the evening no mood. Yat tried to make jokes but mission failed. Cause i had my girlything and saw THE EX. Turn off like fuck.
THE MUTHAFUCKIN EX WHO WAS CONTROLLING RABAKK GILER NAK MAMPOS BLEH MATI NYER.
Lol.
At then walked past them again. Yat saw him and laughed really loud. Like, d00d! Its that shitass muthafucka!! Lol. Then went to 7 11 and bought Big Gulp. Sat at where me and Ikabubu use to sit waiting for Ariffin to end school. We sat there for an hour, smoking our lungs out and drawing the band's logo. Not nice sia. Heh.
Then he say he bored giler, walked to West Mall again and sat at the staircasethingy. He was even more bored and i couldnt laugh much cause of the girlything and saw THE EX.
Walked to Little Guilin.
Reached there, practiced the original songs. It was good. Really nice songs, seriously.
Cracked some more lameass shitcrap jokes, finally laughed my ass off when he did....
THE CHICKEN WHO TRIED TO FLY.
-_____-'
Damn funny. Should make fun of the way people walk again. Hahahahaha! :D
Sat there for a few more hours, talking about relationships, banglas, and songs and bands. Then walked to Bukit Gombak MRT. Smoke a few more sticks and he went off then i walked home.
And now here i am. Lol.
Eh Yat, thanks for tryna cheer me up, the double cheeseburger and the ciggies. It helps to have a friend around :)
Ohh and Dharsh, i'll tell you when we meet okayy? Imysm babe! :D
Kk no more things to add. My fingers aching la and im damn pissed for seeing the tak perlu guy. Pfffft.
Kk bye.
Its 12.21am. Wow im early today.
Met Yat around 3 plus at SP today. AGAIN. He say got cca open house and get to eat free food cause got buffet. So met him at taxi stand, slack here slack there, settled at one coffee shop. Sit there, talk crap and bought ice blended dinosaur. Went back to SP at 5.45pm. Went to the Convention Center building but got talks uh. Pissed off got no free food, head to Bukit Gombak to get his ciggies.
After getting his ciggies, walked to West Mall and went to MacD. He blanja me cheeseburger and we went up. Looked to my right and saw....
MY FUCKING EX WITH HIS FRIENDS!!!!
I think his friend tego him that he saw me then he turned, looked at me for half a second, then turned back.
That was a total turn off for the day. Like fuck sia. The rest of the evening no mood. Yat tried to make jokes but mission failed. Cause i had my girlything and saw THE EX. Turn off like fuck.
THE MUTHAFUCKIN EX WHO WAS CONTROLLING RABAKK GILER NAK MAMPOS BLEH MATI NYER.
Lol.
At then walked past them again. Yat saw him and laughed really loud. Like, d00d! Its that shitass muthafucka!! Lol. Then went to 7 11 and bought Big Gulp. Sat at where me and Ikabubu use to sit waiting for Ariffin to end school. We sat there for an hour, smoking our lungs out and drawing the band's logo. Not nice sia. Heh.
Then he say he bored giler, walked to West Mall again and sat at the staircasethingy. He was even more bored and i couldnt laugh much cause of the girlything and saw THE EX.
Walked to Little Guilin.
Reached there, practiced the original songs. It was good. Really nice songs, seriously.
Cracked some more lameass shitcrap jokes, finally laughed my ass off when he did....
THE CHICKEN WHO TRIED TO FLY.
-_____-'
Damn funny. Should make fun of the way people walk again. Hahahahaha! :D
Sat there for a few more hours, talking about relationships, banglas, and songs and bands. Then walked to Bukit Gombak MRT. Smoke a few more sticks and he went off then i walked home.
And now here i am. Lol.
Eh Yat, thanks for tryna cheer me up, the double cheeseburger and the ciggies. It helps to have a friend around :)
Ohh and Dharsh, i'll tell you when we meet okayy? Imysm babe! :D
Kk no more things to add. My fingers aching la and im damn pissed for seeing the tak perlu guy. Pfffft.
Kk bye.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
This feeling really suck. Big time.
I dont know how i feel anymore.
I still love you a hell lot for how you make me feel.
I don't wanna lose you.
But as time flies, i dont get to meet you, i dont even get to talk to you until we meet up.
Getting a job a.s.a.p is a major priority for me now. So that i can treat you to alot of stuffs. So that i can get my private diploma and land a decent job and treat you to more stuffs.
Second, is the band. I've been wanting to do this since forever. And i want this so bad.
But idk if i can manage my time.
I love you too much to let you go so all im asking for now is time.
Time to sort out my feelings and manage my time.
I know you're gonna say alot of mean things to me and bitch about me to all your friends but its up to you.
I know i sound selfish after all the things that you've done for me.
Just to let you know, im not using you and i never will. Cause 'using people' is not in my Book of Principles.
I dont wanna let you go but i need to sort out stuff first.
Its getting complicated and im crying so much after typing all these.
I know you'll prolly wont give a damn now that you've read this.
I know you'll prolly think im sucha bitch and might think im like the same as all th other girls out there.
I know i suck at love.
Fuckk. I hate this part right here.
I feel like killing myself right now to end all this but i know thats not the way out.
I hate myself for feeling this way.
And I love you, Iszwan :'(
I still love you a hell lot for how you make me feel.
I don't wanna lose you.
But as time flies, i dont get to meet you, i dont even get to talk to you until we meet up.
Getting a job a.s.a.p is a major priority for me now. So that i can treat you to alot of stuffs. So that i can get my private diploma and land a decent job and treat you to more stuffs.
Second, is the band. I've been wanting to do this since forever. And i want this so bad.
But idk if i can manage my time.
I love you too much to let you go so all im asking for now is time.
Time to sort out my feelings and manage my time.
I know you're gonna say alot of mean things to me and bitch about me to all your friends but its up to you.
I know i sound selfish after all the things that you've done for me.
Just to let you know, im not using you and i never will. Cause 'using people' is not in my Book of Principles.
I dont wanna let you go but i need to sort out stuff first.
Its getting complicated and im crying so much after typing all these.
I know you'll prolly wont give a damn now that you've read this.
I know you'll prolly think im sucha bitch and might think im like the same as all th other girls out there.
I know i suck at love.
Fuckk. I hate this part right here.
I feel like killing myself right now to end all this but i know thats not the way out.
I hate myself for feeling this way.
And I love you, Iszwan :'(
A new friend found
heylow mofos! :D
Its 1.44am in the fuckin' morning. Lol.
Okay here's what i did today.
Met Hidayat at SP around 12.30pm. Smoked there for awhile, bus-ed to town for the Warehouse/Miss Selfridge interview. I think i got the job? :/ if i don't i swear i'll break down and cry! Gahh.
Walked to Raffles to eat MacD. Smoke there then talk alot of shit uh. After eating, Yat needed the toilet. As usual, MacD toilet ade orang so we went off to Fullerton's toilet.
Here's the best part:
As we were walking to Fullerton Hotel for the damn posh gawjus toilet, we were caught on camera! Its the singapore's version of Just For Laugh! No im not kidding i swear! We walk near the shady area. Then 2 ninjas, one in black and the other in red, suddenly came out of nowhere and started acting like they were fighting each other with their whateverfunnylookingthingstheywereholding.
THEY TRIED TO ATTACK ME!!!
I screamed at first. Yat was alr like blur sotong sia then stand one corner, laughing -___-"
Rabakk sia member. Hahahahaha!
Then i was shouted smth like "eh fuck sia knnccb!" to the ninjas and they were like, laughing! Then a girl came up and said like, they needed our permission to let them air it on teevee. I was like fuck yeahh sure. Was still damn shock sia. Wtf! Not needed! >.<
Sial la im gonna go on teefuckinvee and my shocked/pissed/turn off face will be there for the whole of singapore to see.
Tak glamour siolsxsxsxs! -___-'
Then i was still shocked as hell when i came out of the toilet. Lol.
Walked to esplanade to get get candy floss.
Then sit near waterfront and talk a hell lot of shit again:
"Mr Bert Lek, father of Mrs Chik Eng Lek and sister of Mr Dak Lek!" *inside joke la. You guys wont understand one. Lol*
Ketawe mcm orang giler!
Then went to rooftop to do some personal band stuff (not what you think laaa!) then walked to MacD at Marina. Bought Mcfuckinflurry then sit outside and smoke GULONG. Nak save some sticks for later use uh. Heh.
Then no plans i randomly suggested we slack at Pasir Ris. So long sia never chill there. Zaman scondary oii ^.^
Trained to Pasir Ris. Sweared alot about the crowds on the train. Turn off rabakkk.
Then walked to Downtown East. Sit at MacD (Idk whats up w us always sitting at MacD, seriously!) AGAIN but no smoking corner. Mengamok. Lol. Then walked around then give up, gi luar, dudok satu corner, hisap GULONG again -____-'
Like pathetic sia sit one corner then gulong.
THAT PERSON CHILLED WITH COMEBACK KID SIALLLL. FUCKER. CCB. Tak ajak. Member aper seyy. Lol.
Then walked to Pasir Ris central. Go to ShopnSave he buy lime juice. Like wtff? Then sat outside the ShopnSave and talk alot of crap and smoke shitloads of gulong. Heh. Then i step cakap orang putehh. Then campur w nigguh language. Yat alr laughing his ass off. Sumpahh bolehh make it sia! Haha!
Got high on limefuckinjuice, talk alot of funny shitass crap and walked back to interchange. Smoke a hell lot today. Thanks to Yat's gulong :)
Saturday, drinking session! XD
Then on the train, i thought about stuff and nearly broke down. Then Yat told me to chill and all.
Thanks dooood :)
Now im fucking tired and wanna sleep. Well not really. If im bored i blog okehh bloggy?
K bye.
Its 1.44am in the fuckin' morning. Lol.
Okay here's what i did today.
Met Hidayat at SP around 12.30pm. Smoked there for awhile, bus-ed to town for the Warehouse/Miss Selfridge interview. I think i got the job? :/ if i don't i swear i'll break down and cry! Gahh.
Walked to Raffles to eat MacD. Smoke there then talk alot of shit uh. After eating, Yat needed the toilet. As usual, MacD toilet ade orang so we went off to Fullerton's toilet.
Here's the best part:
As we were walking to Fullerton Hotel for the damn posh gawjus toilet, we were caught on camera! Its the singapore's version of Just For Laugh! No im not kidding i swear! We walk near the shady area. Then 2 ninjas, one in black and the other in red, suddenly came out of nowhere and started acting like they were fighting each other with their whateverfunnylookingthingstheywereholding.
THEY TRIED TO ATTACK ME!!!
I screamed at first. Yat was alr like blur sotong sia then stand one corner, laughing -___-"
Rabakk sia member. Hahahahaha!
Then i was shouted smth like "eh fuck sia knnccb!" to the ninjas and they were like, laughing! Then a girl came up and said like, they needed our permission to let them air it on teevee. I was like fuck yeahh sure. Was still damn shock sia. Wtf! Not needed! >.<
Sial la im gonna go on teefuckinvee and my shocked/pissed/turn off face will be there for the whole of singapore to see.
Tak glamour siolsxsxsxs! -___-'
Then i was still shocked as hell when i came out of the toilet. Lol.
Walked to esplanade to get get candy floss.
Then sit near waterfront and talk a hell lot of shit again:
"Mr Bert Lek, father of Mrs Chik Eng Lek and sister of Mr Dak Lek!" *inside joke la. You guys wont understand one. Lol*
Ketawe mcm orang giler!
Then went to rooftop to do some personal band stuff (not what you think laaa!) then walked to MacD at Marina. Bought Mcfuckinflurry then sit outside and smoke GULONG. Nak save some sticks for later use uh. Heh.
Then no plans i randomly suggested we slack at Pasir Ris. So long sia never chill there. Zaman scondary oii ^.^
Trained to Pasir Ris. Sweared alot about the crowds on the train. Turn off rabakkk.
Then walked to Downtown East. Sit at MacD (Idk whats up w us always sitting at MacD, seriously!) AGAIN but no smoking corner. Mengamok. Lol. Then walked around then give up, gi luar, dudok satu corner, hisap GULONG again -____-'
Like pathetic sia sit one corner then gulong.
THAT PERSON CHILLED WITH COMEBACK KID SIALLLL. FUCKER. CCB. Tak ajak. Member aper seyy. Lol.
Then walked to Pasir Ris central. Go to ShopnSave he buy lime juice. Like wtff? Then sat outside the ShopnSave and talk alot of crap and smoke shitloads of gulong. Heh. Then i step cakap orang putehh. Then campur w nigguh language. Yat alr laughing his ass off. Sumpahh bolehh make it sia! Haha!
Got high on limefuckinjuice, talk alot of funny shitass crap and walked back to interchange. Smoke a hell lot today. Thanks to Yat's gulong :)
Saturday, drinking session! XD
Then on the train, i thought about stuff and nearly broke down. Then Yat told me to chill and all.
Thanks dooood :)
Now im fucking tired and wanna sleep. Well not really. If im bored i blog okehh bloggy?
K bye.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mother's Day
hello bloggy.
Its 10.23pm and its Mother's Day.
Mum, sis and stepdad is out, as usual. But not me.
You might ask why.
Cause in my family, birthdays or Mother's Day or Father's Day or whatever occasion it is, it doesnt mean anything to them. At all.
Ohwell. Whatever.
Happy Mother's Day, mum.
Its 10.23pm and its Mother's Day.
Mum, sis and stepdad is out, as usual. But not me.
You might ask why.
Cause in my family, birthdays or Mother's Day or Father's Day or whatever occasion it is, it doesnt mean anything to them. At all.
Ohwell. Whatever.
Happy Mother's Day, mum.
Sing till your lungs starts to bleed
hello cyberians X)
Its 1.24am and i got back 15 mins ago.
And im tired and my head us aching.
Met Hidayat today. Was supposed to meet at 11am at Citylink but cause i woke up late, delay until 12pm. Sorry ehh ^^
Went job hunting all around Raffles City. As nearly all the shops.
Mr Bert Lek! ROFFLMAO!!! XD *inside joke*
After that, da penat, went to Marina Square. Ate LJS. Yayy!
After that walked to bugis for Hidayat's band, Sacrificial Lies. Spent 4 friggin hours in the studio. I was so bored but i swear their originals are goooooooood :D
AND IM THE NEW VOCALIST FOR SACRIFICIAL LIES!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!
Okaaaay we play like uh hardcore? Old skool hardcore? Idk? Heh :)
After that, walked to bugis to meet Liya! I thought Mondre was coming ah ohwell :/
Then since she legal alr, she bought Corona and Lime breezer. I mixed both up and ended up w a headache. Gawd stupid to mix beer and liquorbutnotsoheavyliquor together -.-'
Then me and Liya had some personal talk.
Stay strong okehh girl? Life is short so smile. Life is nothing without hardships.
After that, talk here, talk there, trained home w Hidayat. Sumpah penat giler. In the train we talked about old times.
PROTRACTORR!! *inside joke. Again*
And noww im home.
Boyf must be home alr. Hope you had fun at jb w your mum hun. Ily and imy, like alotsxsxsxsxs!! XD
Kk now gonna go disturb random people on myspace.
See yuhh nigguhhhh!
Its 1.24am and i got back 15 mins ago.
And im tired and my head us aching.
Met Hidayat today. Was supposed to meet at 11am at Citylink but cause i woke up late, delay until 12pm. Sorry ehh ^^
Went job hunting all around Raffles City. As nearly all the shops.
Mr Bert Lek! ROFFLMAO!!! XD *inside joke*
After that, da penat, went to Marina Square. Ate LJS. Yayy!
After that walked to bugis for Hidayat's band, Sacrificial Lies. Spent 4 friggin hours in the studio. I was so bored but i swear their originals are goooooooood :D
AND IM THE NEW VOCALIST FOR SACRIFICIAL LIES!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!
Okaaaay we play like uh hardcore? Old skool hardcore? Idk? Heh :)
After that, walked to bugis to meet Liya! I thought Mondre was coming ah ohwell :/
Then since she legal alr, she bought Corona and Lime breezer. I mixed both up and ended up w a headache. Gawd stupid to mix beer and liquorbutnotsoheavyliquor together -.-'
Then me and Liya had some personal talk.
Stay strong okehh girl? Life is short so smile. Life is nothing without hardships.
After that, talk here, talk there, trained home w Hidayat. Sumpah penat giler. In the train we talked about old times.
PROTRACTORR!! *inside joke. Again*
And noww im home.
Boyf must be home alr. Hope you had fun at jb w your mum hun. Ily and imy, like alotsxsxsxsxs!! XD
Kk now gonna go disturb random people on myspace.
See yuhh nigguhhhh!
Friday, May 8, 2009
Selamat datang!! ROFL!
Yaw :)
10.46pm. Idk why i like to check the time when i blog. Lol.
Met Dharsh bestie at yishun today. She texted me at 6 plus in the morning. Like duh i was asleep. Then i woke up at 12pm by my alarm then i saw her msg that she wanted to meet at 12.30pm at yishun Northpoint
-.-'
And it was 12.15pm when i woke up.
So i showered, change clothes, hair still wet and messy, no make up on, wear slippers, went down to call her and tell her i'll reach there around 1.45pm.
Hung up, ran back up and got ready.
Trained to yishun and met her with her friend, Fadilah. Slack at some block after getting present for mothers day.
Sat down, smoke here and there, talk alot of shit then went home.
Reached home, sister was watching teeveeeee :)
So yeah now im bored, blogging and NOBODY reads this blog anw. Lawl.
Tmrw, meet up w Hidayat at City hall at 11 fuckin am! Crazy, seriously. He say wanna job hunt. Okay job hunt is an exception to wake up early :)
Im crazy on myspace today. Disturbed Haziq and OneJet by talking nigguh language. Swear to god tk menjadi sia. Heh.
Oh boyf texted me today about my previous blog post :D heh. Seeeeee. Your girlf damn sweeet yuh knowwww.
K bedekk ah. LOL.
OMFFFFFGGG! I swear i saw a black shadow pass by me just now :s FUUCCCKKKK???????!!!
OHH AND MAS SELAMAT IS ALREADY CAPTURED!! CAPFUCKINTURED!!! YESSSAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
Okehh gonna go disturb people on myspace again XD
Update tmrw yawwyaww!
*swooshswoosh*
ROFL!
10.46pm. Idk why i like to check the time when i blog. Lol.
Met Dharsh bestie at yishun today. She texted me at 6 plus in the morning. Like duh i was asleep. Then i woke up at 12pm by my alarm then i saw her msg that she wanted to meet at 12.30pm at yishun Northpoint
-.-'
And it was 12.15pm when i woke up.
So i showered, change clothes, hair still wet and messy, no make up on, wear slippers, went down to call her and tell her i'll reach there around 1.45pm.
Hung up, ran back up and got ready.
Trained to yishun and met her with her friend, Fadilah. Slack at some block after getting present for mothers day.
Sat down, smoke here and there, talk alot of shit then went home.
Reached home, sister was watching teeveeeee :)
So yeah now im bored, blogging and NOBODY reads this blog anw. Lawl.
Tmrw, meet up w Hidayat at City hall at 11 fuckin am! Crazy, seriously. He say wanna job hunt. Okay job hunt is an exception to wake up early :)
Im crazy on myspace today. Disturbed Haziq and OneJet by talking nigguh language. Swear to god tk menjadi sia. Heh.
Oh boyf texted me today about my previous blog post :D heh. Seeeeee. Your girlf damn sweeet yuh knowwww.
K bedekk ah. LOL.
OMFFFFFGGG! I swear i saw a black shadow pass by me just now :s FUUCCCKKKK???????!!!
OHH AND MAS SELAMAT IS ALREADY CAPTURED!! CAPFUCKINTURED!!! YESSSAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
Okehh gonna go disturb people on myspace again XD
Update tmrw yawwyaww!
*swooshswoosh*
ROFL!
I love you.
Sometimes you feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. At times you can absolutely love a person while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarentees but you can expect that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes and falling in love will change your life.
Everyone says that love hurts. But thats not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuse these things with love. But in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.
I miss you when something really good happens because you're the one i want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me because you're the only one that understands me so well. I miss you when i laugh and when i cry because i know that you're the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears dissapear. I miss you all the time but i miss you the most when i lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.
And i end this with :
I LOVE YOU, MUHD NOOR ISZWAN :)
Everyone says that love hurts. But thats not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuse these things with love. But in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.
I miss you when something really good happens because you're the one i want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me because you're the only one that understands me so well. I miss you when i laugh and when i cry because i know that you're the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears dissapear. I miss you all the time but i miss you the most when i lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.
And i end this with :
I LOVE YOU, MUHD NOOR ISZWAN :)
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Jealousy rears its ugly head
Yeah. Its about the title.
I dont know why you have to be jealous of me. It sucks to know that you're jealous of every single movement i make, every step i take, and every word i speak. And you're my bestie. Do you know how hurt i was when you sent me the 7 page long text?
Yehh i know i said everything is fine now but its cause i dont wanna argue. I need to talk to you like face to face and get this over with. But when we talk, its like, im talking to a green eyed person. Sometimes i just wanna let everything out but its hard cause i know the kind of person you are.
Bestie, i still love you. Dont hate me, please :(
I dont know why you have to be jealous of me. It sucks to know that you're jealous of every single movement i make, every step i take, and every word i speak. And you're my bestie. Do you know how hurt i was when you sent me the 7 page long text?
Yehh i know i said everything is fine now but its cause i dont wanna argue. I need to talk to you like face to face and get this over with. But when we talk, its like, im talking to a green eyed person. Sometimes i just wanna let everything out but its hard cause i know the kind of person you are.
Bestie, i still love you. Dont hate me, please :(
Like one heartbeat
hello :)
Wow i woke up at 11am today. Like, finally? LOL. Okay i cleaned up my room and it looks better now ^^ *pleased w myself*
Found a pack of Marlboro menthol in me mum's bag. AGAIN.
Happy gilerr oittss! XD
Kay im hungry. But don't feel like eating. Gaahhh.
Myspace is so boring but i edited my About Me section. Its like so mean luhh. Heh :)
Idk why but i feel so lazy nowadays.
I miss my besties and my friends.. Like, so much.
Ohkaaayy pussies. The plan for saturday is:
1) Follow Hidayat go his band, Sacrificial Lies recording at Beats Merchant (legend sia that place. LOL).
2) After that, follow the birthday girl to wherever she wants to go.
3) At night, head to UOB for mini birthday :)
Okay the next plan idk. Cause Liya say got adventure outing ala Misteri Jam 12.
But she say she wants to drink too.
So how to go adventure and drink at the same time?
Next thing you know i'll be talking to a pocong. LOL.
I got a thing for pocongs you see. They scare the fuck out of me, seriously. Pontianaks, not really. Just pocong. They scare me shitless! O.o
K will update later. Dunnoe what to say alr.
Heh.
But fags! X)
Wow i woke up at 11am today. Like, finally? LOL. Okay i cleaned up my room and it looks better now ^^ *pleased w myself*
Found a pack of Marlboro menthol in me mum's bag. AGAIN.
Happy gilerr oittss! XD
Kay im hungry. But don't feel like eating. Gaahhh.
Myspace is so boring but i edited my About Me section. Its like so mean luhh. Heh :)
Idk why but i feel so lazy nowadays.
I miss my besties and my friends.. Like, so much.
Ohkaaayy pussies. The plan for saturday is:
1) Follow Hidayat go his band, Sacrificial Lies recording at Beats Merchant (legend sia that place. LOL).
2) After that, follow the birthday girl to wherever she wants to go.
3) At night, head to UOB for mini birthday :)
Okay the next plan idk. Cause Liya say got adventure outing ala Misteri Jam 12.
But she say she wants to drink too.
So how to go adventure and drink at the same time?
Next thing you know i'll be talking to a pocong. LOL.
I got a thing for pocongs you see. They scare the fuck out of me, seriously. Pontianaks, not really. Just pocong. They scare me shitless! O.o
K will update later. Dunnoe what to say alr.
Heh.
But fags! X)
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Im trying to get away from everything
hi :)
Im bored, so that explains the title. Lol.
Sometimes i dont get people.
They add you up on myspace, saying you're fun, cool and all that.
Then they add you on MSN.
The best part is, on MSN, they dont talk as much as they use to on myspace. Like whaaa??
I wont say they dont talk as much as they do on other websites.
ITS THEY DONT TALK AT ALL ON MSN!
Then whats the point of adding me up on MSN??
You might be saying, why the fuckk am i making a huge fuss out of this.
Its cause i find people on MSN dumb. They add but dont talk. Yeh you might ask me to make the first move and all.
If i do make the first move, i talk less than 2 sentences and yeh, done.
So yeah.
A bunch of bitchasswhoremuthafuckincuntfags who added me on MSN but dont talk.
gosh am i that sensitive? Okay maybe i am extremely sensitive but its just me man. Love me or hate me, i couldnt care less. I got my life to lead. Honestly, I HAVE NO LIFE. So basically, i turn to MSN. But things whom they call 'friends' or 'people', they dont talk. At all.
So yeah. Im a sensitive bitch. So sue me.
Okae should go draw strawberry and hello kitties and funny looking monsters so at least i have a life. To draw *nods*
Im bored, so that explains the title. Lol.
Sometimes i dont get people.
They add you up on myspace, saying you're fun, cool and all that.
Then they add you on MSN.
The best part is, on MSN, they dont talk as much as they use to on myspace. Like whaaa??
I wont say they dont talk as much as they do on other websites.
ITS THEY DONT TALK AT ALL ON MSN!
Then whats the point of adding me up on MSN??
You might be saying, why the fuckk am i making a huge fuss out of this.
Its cause i find people on MSN dumb. They add but dont talk. Yeh you might ask me to make the first move and all.
If i do make the first move, i talk less than 2 sentences and yeh, done.
So yeah.
A bunch of bitchasswhoremuthafuckincuntfags who added me on MSN but dont talk.
gosh am i that sensitive? Okay maybe i am extremely sensitive but its just me man. Love me or hate me, i couldnt care less. I got my life to lead. Honestly, I HAVE NO LIFE. So basically, i turn to MSN. But things whom they call 'friends' or 'people', they dont talk. At all.
So yeah. Im a sensitive bitch. So sue me.
Okae should go draw strawberry and hello kitties and funny looking monsters so at least i have a life. To draw *nods*
I want to see what you have learnt
heyheylowlow :)
Its 8.53pm and i have no topic to start with.
Been craving for raspberry vodka.
If Saturday i got money i go buy. If not, anybody? *hinthint*
Pleeeeeeeaaaasssseeeeee? *puppy eyes*
LOL. Okay i woke up really late today. Like 6pm? Baik kaaaaann :D
I slept at 5am yest. Couldnt sleep.
Ye la. Nobody talked to me on msn for 2 days straight. Except for the boyf, who slept at 11pm yest i thin :/
Sso should i tell my mum i smoke? Cause im scared she'll blow her head off if i tell her.
But its a lil sensible to not tell. So she wont blow her head off right?
Gahh. Fuck it.
Yay today ate mee goreng with alot of chicken wing XD XD
Okay today nth much happening.
Anybody reading this, please talk to me on msn. Im bored as fuck ya knowww.
Okay should lip sync to All Shall Perish :D
Its 8.53pm and i have no topic to start with.
Been craving for raspberry vodka.
If Saturday i got money i go buy. If not, anybody? *hinthint*
Pleeeeeeeaaaasssseeeeee? *puppy eyes*
LOL. Okay i woke up really late today. Like 6pm? Baik kaaaaann :D
I slept at 5am yest. Couldnt sleep.
Ye la. Nobody talked to me on msn for 2 days straight. Except for the boyf, who slept at 11pm yest i thin :/
Sso should i tell my mum i smoke? Cause im scared she'll blow her head off if i tell her.
But its a lil sensible to not tell. So she wont blow her head off right?
Gahh. Fuck it.
Yay today ate mee goreng with alot of chicken wing XD XD
Okay today nth much happening.
Anybody reading this, please talk to me on msn. Im bored as fuck ya knowww.
Okay should lip sync to All Shall Perish :D
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Suffocate under my lies
Gosh. My title sounds so emo.
ROFL.
Okay its 10.34pm and im bored.
MUM IS BEING A COMPLETE BITCH TO ME THESE DAYS.
She has been discriminating me, putting me down and discouraging me. A HELL LOT.
Like what the fuck is her problem sia? Just because i stop school half way and dont have a friggin job.
I know la. Which mum wouldnt be dissapointed in their child if they quit school and all kaaaan.
Worse. If i tell her i drink and smoke how? Even worse right. LOL.
But still, she shouldnt be putting me down and all what. She, as a mum, should be encouraging me but no, she discourage me from trying new stuffs. Fuck.
She herself isnt a good role model sia. She has a tatoo of her fling's name on her chest. She smokes but she doesnt wanna admit. I obviously know she drinks but its her superhugeegothesizeofaspermwhale that make her hide stuff from me. Mofo.
Gosh. Ade hati to say im not being a good role model to my sister.
Okay i admit im not la but look at my own mother. She herself alr cock up then she expects me to rot at home 24/7 and be a goody two shoe.
Well, fuck that. Seriously.
Oh and i hate people controlling the other party, esp if the other party is th girlf/boyf.
Like whats the point in doing that??
If you truly love someone, you would wanna see them happy right. And not seeing them unhappy because you dont get things done your way.
Like it just doesnt make sense you know. If you love someone, so much, you'd want to see him/her smile, no matter what you think they're doing, as long as they are happy, so should you, right?
Gosh. People. Esp control freaks. Get a life of your own before starting to control other people's life, seriously. If you tell me you alr have a life then i guess you're too cock up in your own life you prefer to control the other party's life, which i find it soooooo unnecessary.
ROFL.
Okay its 10.34pm and im bored.
MUM IS BEING A COMPLETE BITCH TO ME THESE DAYS.
She has been discriminating me, putting me down and discouraging me. A HELL LOT.
Like what the fuck is her problem sia? Just because i stop school half way and dont have a friggin job.
I know la. Which mum wouldnt be dissapointed in their child if they quit school and all kaaaan.
Worse. If i tell her i drink and smoke how? Even worse right. LOL.
But still, she shouldnt be putting me down and all what. She, as a mum, should be encouraging me but no, she discourage me from trying new stuffs. Fuck.
She herself isnt a good role model sia. She has a tatoo of her fling's name on her chest. She smokes but she doesnt wanna admit. I obviously know she drinks but its her superhugeegothesizeofaspermwhale that make her hide stuff from me. Mofo.
Gosh. Ade hati to say im not being a good role model to my sister.
Okay i admit im not la but look at my own mother. She herself alr cock up then she expects me to rot at home 24/7 and be a goody two shoe.
Well, fuck that. Seriously.
Oh and i hate people controlling the other party, esp if the other party is th girlf/boyf.
Like whats the point in doing that??
If you truly love someone, you would wanna see them happy right. And not seeing them unhappy because you dont get things done your way.
Like it just doesnt make sense you know. If you love someone, so much, you'd want to see him/her smile, no matter what you think they're doing, as long as they are happy, so should you, right?
Gosh. People. Esp control freaks. Get a life of your own before starting to control other people's life, seriously. If you tell me you alr have a life then i guess you're too cock up in your own life you prefer to control the other party's life, which i find it soooooo unnecessary.
Tired as fuckkkkk
hey hey you you :)
Its 4.37pm and i just woke up.
Yesterday Joey asked to meet up at 10.30pm at Raffles Place mrt.
I reached there like exactly at 10pm. Walk around, sit here sit there until 11pm ALONEEE.
He texted me asking to meet at MacDonald's instead.
He turned up half an hour later -.-
Went to MacD, Watch Teeth. Movie sumpah merepekk sia. LOL.
Then i texted Remy asked him where he is. He was at bugis.
Joey nye tangan gatal sangat ask him to meet us here -.-
And he came like 20 mins later w his date.. Or friend. Hahahahaha.
Then he wanted to drink so pack stuffs up, head to 7 11. He bought like idkhowmanycansofbaron.
Like alot. And his date, okay her name is Nita or smth like that. Heh. Sorry la joy, lupe namer. Heh :) oh and she's uber preeeettyyyyy!
Then sat down, drink, smoke, talk lotsa shiat.
Dapat tau da pkul 5am. I was like, huh?? So fast? Lol.
Slack here slack there, Joey fell asleep -.-
Well he was tired. Tk tido 3 days straight. LOL. Saper suroh.
Then 7 am and Nita and Remy went off. Came back 10 mins later -________-
Idk why but yeah they came back, i nearly fell asleep thinking of the boyf :D
Then the 2 birdies went off first and all of a sudden, Joey like, terbangun and was suddenly wide awake and he said. 'Chao uh.'
I was like whaaaa???. LOLOL.
Took train home while joey, being joey, cycled all the way back to redhill.
Oh well, we go waaaaaaayyy back sia Joey :)
Came home, nobody was home, plop myself on my bed and zzzzzzzzzz until now, i just woke up.
I miss boyf :(
He wanted to meet me at 5pm today but i jsut woke up and blom mandi sumer. Fcuk.
And im feeling tired. Want to shower but cant bring myself to shower.
Oor maybe i should just sit under the showerhead fully clothe and sleep again?
Yes. Should go do that *nods*
Its 4.37pm and i just woke up.
Yesterday Joey asked to meet up at 10.30pm at Raffles Place mrt.
I reached there like exactly at 10pm. Walk around, sit here sit there until 11pm ALONEEE.
He texted me asking to meet at MacDonald's instead.
He turned up half an hour later -.-
Went to MacD, Watch Teeth. Movie sumpah merepekk sia. LOL.
Then i texted Remy asked him where he is. He was at bugis.
Joey nye tangan gatal sangat ask him to meet us here -.-
And he came like 20 mins later w his date.. Or friend. Hahahahaha.
Then he wanted to drink so pack stuffs up, head to 7 11. He bought like idkhowmanycansofbaron.
Like alot. And his date, okay her name is Nita or smth like that. Heh. Sorry la joy, lupe namer. Heh :) oh and she's uber preeeettyyyyy!
Then sat down, drink, smoke, talk lotsa shiat.
Dapat tau da pkul 5am. I was like, huh?? So fast? Lol.
Slack here slack there, Joey fell asleep -.-
Well he was tired. Tk tido 3 days straight. LOL. Saper suroh.
Then 7 am and Nita and Remy went off. Came back 10 mins later -________-
Idk why but yeah they came back, i nearly fell asleep thinking of the boyf :D
Then the 2 birdies went off first and all of a sudden, Joey like, terbangun and was suddenly wide awake and he said. 'Chao uh.'
I was like whaaaa???. LOLOL.
Took train home while joey, being joey, cycled all the way back to redhill.
Oh well, we go waaaaaaayyy back sia Joey :)
Came home, nobody was home, plop myself on my bed and zzzzzzzzzz until now, i just woke up.
I miss boyf :(
He wanted to meet me at 5pm today but i jsut woke up and blom mandi sumer. Fcuk.
And im feeling tired. Want to shower but cant bring myself to shower.
Oor maybe i should just sit under the showerhead fully clothe and sleep again?
Yes. Should go do that *nods*
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Jengjengjengjengjeng!!
Heyheyhihi :D
Its 10.51pm and im fuckn pissed.
I woke up at 2pm and mum was cursing at me saying im sucha 'useless child. ask for money but never help me do anything.' I was like wtff did i fuckn do?? I didnt exactly say that but i just said aloud 'Yeah? Whatever.'
Then she stared at me like she wanted to slap me. Then i stared at her back and put on my earphone and blasted White Chapel and hide my face with my pillow. I wanted to cry but hell no.
First. I dont go out except on weekends then i ask for money. But most of the time, weekdays, she gives me money without me asking. Like wtf?
If this is the case eh, when i get a job, and she ask for like monthly allowances, i swear on fucks i wont give her any. I may sound like a bad daughter but thats how she treats me. Ima bad daughter but regardless of who the fucknyou are, i dont care. You treat me like this, i give you the taste of your own medicine.
Gosh. Everything she talks is about mooney. Like wtf la. I dont even see you smiling at me. Not once in 18 years of my life.
Seriously. Cant she see im trying my hardest to get a fucking job?? Fuck la. Fuckity fuckity fuck fuck fuck.
I swear when i get a job i wanna save up and get a rented room and save up some more get private course. Easy said than done. Gahh.
I cant stand my mums prangai sial. Mcm puki sial ccb.
Kay today did nothing online, but as usual, tkde orang nk tego. Wtf. Go and die la.
K will update tmrw. Meeting Dharshy at yishun at t plus with Fad and Naz (whom dharsh names them muffins and cupcakes. And im nutella. True. I luuuurrrvvveee nutella :D)
Its 10.51pm and im fuckn pissed.
I woke up at 2pm and mum was cursing at me saying im sucha 'useless child. ask for money but never help me do anything.' I was like wtff did i fuckn do?? I didnt exactly say that but i just said aloud 'Yeah? Whatever.'
Then she stared at me like she wanted to slap me. Then i stared at her back and put on my earphone and blasted White Chapel and hide my face with my pillow. I wanted to cry but hell no.
First. I dont go out except on weekends then i ask for money. But most of the time, weekdays, she gives me money without me asking. Like wtf?
If this is the case eh, when i get a job, and she ask for like monthly allowances, i swear on fucks i wont give her any. I may sound like a bad daughter but thats how she treats me. Ima bad daughter but regardless of who the fucknyou are, i dont care. You treat me like this, i give you the taste of your own medicine.
Gosh. Everything she talks is about mooney. Like wtf la. I dont even see you smiling at me. Not once in 18 years of my life.
Seriously. Cant she see im trying my hardest to get a fucking job?? Fuck la. Fuckity fuckity fuck fuck fuck.
I swear when i get a job i wanna save up and get a rented room and save up some more get private course. Easy said than done. Gahh.
I cant stand my mums prangai sial. Mcm puki sial ccb.
Kay today did nothing online, but as usual, tkde orang nk tego. Wtf. Go and die la.
K will update tmrw. Meeting Dharshy at yishun at t plus with Fad and Naz (whom dharsh names them muffins and cupcakes. And im nutella. True. I luuuurrrvvveee nutella :D)
Happy 2nd monthsary!
hello readersss!
I just got back home. Its 12.56am.
Lets see what we did today.
Woke up at 11.30am, before mum went out to see kuda kepang at idk where, asked mum for $10. She gave me $2. Argue argue, she said she'll wait for me at the coffee shop downstairs to give me more money. After i bathes, met her, she gave me $7 -.-
Went back up, siap2, fetched boyf from amk platform and head to dhoby ghaut to watch 17 Again. I swear Zac Efron hothothot siol. Even boyf agrees :D
Then after that, met rara, nosey, ika and yan outside cathay. Ika complimented i wore a nice dress. Padahal bukan dress. LOL. Then walked to to raffles bk eating house. Was kinda cranky cause i was effin hungry. Ate cockels fried rice. Damn delicios as fuck man. Lol. Then outta the blue, mizam, alfee and iforgothisname appeared behind boyf. Lol. Da makan2 sume, head to UOB. Slack there and saw...
MY BELOVED IKABUBU!!! :D
Sumpah happy giler. Ika with ayu and wan and ariffin and iforgothisname no. 2. Lol. Talk here there, then went to toilet with liya. Then talk cock, lepak ngan liya, boyf and his friends, balek.
LOL.
Wasn t exactly perfect date for me and boyf but im happy cause today happy day maaahh. Lol. But im happy cause i get to watch movie with boyf. Just gg out with him, got money or not, it really made my day.
To boyf, i love your lameass jokes. I love you making sarcastic lameass jokes and that smirk. Those are the small things that really made me love you more and more each day even though we only see each other once a week. It made me realise i love you more and more as each day passes. I love you for making me feel like the happiest girl in the world when im with you.
i love you very very much boyf! :D
Okay mitch, nick and zac ae mine! Oh and boyf too. Hahahahahahhahahahaha!!
Okay im such a lameass la. Cb. Iszwan, you got yourself a lameass girlf. LOL.
Okay nights yawww. Will update soon pussies!
XD
I just got back home. Its 12.56am.
Lets see what we did today.
Woke up at 11.30am, before mum went out to see kuda kepang at idk where, asked mum for $10. She gave me $2. Argue argue, she said she'll wait for me at the coffee shop downstairs to give me more money. After i bathes, met her, she gave me $7 -.-
Went back up, siap2, fetched boyf from amk platform and head to dhoby ghaut to watch 17 Again. I swear Zac Efron hothothot siol. Even boyf agrees :D
Then after that, met rara, nosey, ika and yan outside cathay. Ika complimented i wore a nice dress. Padahal bukan dress. LOL. Then walked to to raffles bk eating house. Was kinda cranky cause i was effin hungry. Ate cockels fried rice. Damn delicios as fuck man. Lol. Then outta the blue, mizam, alfee and iforgothisname appeared behind boyf. Lol. Da makan2 sume, head to UOB. Slack there and saw...
MY BELOVED IKABUBU!!! :D
Sumpah happy giler. Ika with ayu and wan and ariffin and iforgothisname no. 2. Lol. Talk here there, then went to toilet with liya. Then talk cock, lepak ngan liya, boyf and his friends, balek.
LOL.
Wasn t exactly perfect date for me and boyf but im happy cause today happy day maaahh. Lol. But im happy cause i get to watch movie with boyf. Just gg out with him, got money or not, it really made my day.
To boyf, i love your lameass jokes. I love you making sarcastic lameass jokes and that smirk. Those are the small things that really made me love you more and more each day even though we only see each other once a week. It made me realise i love you more and more as each day passes. I love you for making me feel like the happiest girl in the world when im with you.
i love you very very much boyf! :D
Okay mitch, nick and zac ae mine! Oh and boyf too. Hahahahahahhahahahaha!!
Okay im such a lameass la. Cb. Iszwan, you got yourself a lameass girlf. LOL.
Okay nights yawww. Will update soon pussies!
XD
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