Articula Mortis

Hello.
Its 10.47pm and im watching Taboo.
Awesome show, seriously.

Yay! Meeting boyf on sat for Friday The 13th! :D

So tmrw's plan, ton with Joey at MacD. He better make sure he comes uh. Lol.
Hmm i ate Ramli beef burger today. Damn its so nice, it tastes like heaven. Okay bedek uh taste like heaven but it tastes awesome la! XD

My hair is growing! Yes grow hair grow! Thicker, just a lil thicker :D
Im still hungry.
Just now chatted with no one other than boyf. I miss him already :( nevermind. Be patient just wait for sat. In less than 48 hours i guess?

Okay i have nth to blog about, seriously.
Uh.
Erm.

Okay da bye!

Mood: Down. Really down.

You guessed it. I havent showered. Haha.

I guess i cant keep my mouth shut sometimes.
I guess i cant help but say the wrong things at the wrong time.
I guess i cant stop comparing.
I guess i can never be that wonderful girlf you wanted.

Im all strung out.
I think i need to do some soul searching.

And he doesnt love me anymore. Wow.

No. I need to stay string.
In the mean time, goodbye.

Talking lizards and walking teapots

hellooooo :)
Its 3.32pm and i just woke up. Like wth?? Haha.
Today Joey last minute cancelled on me to meet up. He has a gig today so he cant come over. He promised tomorrow. Ah cheesecake btol ah.
So yeah tmrw, ton at MacD. Update the AdSense account thingy, discuss stuff and all. Me and Joey go way back man. Back in the days where laughing every second is a must.
LOL. We're just really close friends. He says i've become worse, on music taste. Im like wtff??? Funny asshole uh he. :)

Im craving for what i ate yesterday. Rice with tofu, veggie and chicken. Yummeehhhh XD
Might be meeting Kak Arina on Sat night cause afternoon, movie with boyf. Friday the 13th! :D
Im fucking hungry. But im lazy to get up from bed. Lawl.
And i need my red checkered shirt back, khairi! If you ever read this post/blog, I NEED MY RED CHECKERED SHIRT BACK! ITS NOT YOURS, ITS MINEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Okay i think ima go shower now. You have a smelly blogger here haha.

I'll update later muthafuckersxsxsxsxsxs! :D

Fame and infamy

heyheyheyhohoho :)
Its 11.16pm and im watching Project Runway.
Awesome shit man. Lol.
I finally ate a full dinner for once in a couple of weeks. Woah. And yeahh i feel goooood :D
Was on MSN and chatted w boyf. Got pissed for awhile then went bloghopping and bumped into Xiaxue's blog. Gosh. She earns 10k a month just by blogging??? Like wtff i wanna do it tooo!! XD
But oh well, fat hope.
Then when i came back on MSN, boyf offline alr. and as usual. Friends were online but didnt tego. If thats the case why the fuck am i still doing online? For the fucking attention? NO. Cause im bored and i love reading pm's :D
Im sorry boyf if i made you angry at some point :(

Ok da dunno what the fuck to blog about alr.
Wait! Just now arnd 10pm, i watched Okto, then there is this show, like about deep sea anumals. Theres this really cool fish (i forgot what name is it lol) the forhead got glowing lantern. Its cute but minus the huge teeth, it looks cute. But the teeth are like huge and sharrp.

but the forehead got lantern!! A huge glowing lantern!!! XD

ok i'll go back to MSN now. Bored like fuck.

Goodnight to the whole world :)

Lies and deceit.

Hello readers :)
Its 4.22pm and im bored. Im watching Okto and theres nothing much to do or watch. Lol.
Im hungry but i dont wanna eat. Idk why. Heh.
Woke up at 12 plus, online, bloghop, showered, and watched tv till now. Thats how boring my weekdays can be. If only im working. Gahh okay shut up.

I found the old SFOG site! Their pictures really scared me. Theres this one particular pic which said 'Ghost in bedroom'. I clicked on it. I didnt know it was enlarged. Ah amek kau! The ghost with long crazy hair standing in the middle of the room. Fuck. I was so shocked i exited the whole internet explorer thing sia. Lol.
The most legendary one is 'The House' lucky i never click on it. Haha.
Im fascinated with anything like Pocong or Headless. Idk why. Yeah i do get super scared but when i look at it, i get scared AND excited. Yer get my drift? LOL.
Now i think boyf is having his nap. Lol. Tido je eh ^^ heheheheheh.

Might be meeting my drummer later. Needa get some more songs from him and that Russel Peters video. LOL.
Dier tu. Nak main lagu chill2 plak. Mane ade best. Alermakkkk.

Now im hungry. Nvm later go buy smth to fill me tummehh X)

Update later yo X)

Come and strike me down, bitches.

hello-oh-oh X)
Its 10.45pm and im watching Mythbusters. Love this show. So funnn :D

I GOT A PIC COMMENT FROM THAT HOT BASSIST, NICK, OF AS BLOOD RUNS BLACK!!!!! *faints*

Was happy the whole day yesterday when i got that comment. Smiling my arse off. Lol X)

Okay today nothing much. Woke up at 5pm. Pandai kaaaannnn ^^

Was supposed to fetch my sister but my ezlink empty and mum didnt leave money rhen she can argue with me to go fetch her some more. Wth. I mean like, come on la. You know im always broke on weekdays cause i hardly go anywhere. Then why cant you leave me at least 5 bucks to top up my stupid ez link then at least i wont have to trouble you to fetch her kan. Cb sial.

Okay whatever. Myspace and friendster is getting boring, seriously. Just add me up on msn la much easier to talk riiiight. Lol.
Nope. not gonna play Tagged or Facebook. Not a big fan and never will be.

If only i have true friends that will take their time to listen to me. If only i gor true friends who actually cares. If only i got true friends who actually thinks that i mattered to them alot. If only i have a good set of parents. If only im working, then maybe i dont have to depend on my boyf so much. If only i have true friends that dont go stabbing me in the back. If only i have true friends who dont get jealous. If only god was fair.

Where is my god? :(

Ive been feeling weak these days. Like something sucked the life out of me. Its like even going to the kitchen and going back to my room takes up alot of my breath and i end up breathless. I feel like my days are numbered.

Oh god, where are you?

Fade it out.

Hellish hello X)
Its 6.50pm now and i just finished showering.
Went online but as usual, nobody tego me -_-'
So i filled my time random bloghopping until i decided to update mine, although i did update it like a few hours ago. Haha.
I want a tatoo of cupcakes around my wrist with a cursive wording of the word LOVE somewhere near the edge of my wrist. And i want my monroe piercing la. Like when am i gonna get it?? Gawd. Haha.
I think weirdness is uber cool :)
But randomness is nice too.

I miss boyf. Havent contacted him for days. Nevermind. Later gonna websms him XD
And our 2nd month is coming! Confirm broke sia. Sial sial sial sial sial laaaaa why must i always be fucking broke. Fuckcbfuckcbfuckcbsialsialsialsial.
Haha.
Kk i dont know how to do links or a tagboard on this blog. Im a noob you see, so doing all these is not in my knowledge.
(eh i sounded so dumb. Haha!)

Okayokay gna laze arond update soon yaw chickapaprikanukkaaahhnigguhhsxsxsxsxsxz!
Xoxo

Cutting incisions.

Hellooooo :)
I woke up about an hour ago and still havent bathed. HAHAHA! There you have it! A smelly blogger!
I woke up, went online, chatted with bestie for awhile then chatted with Liya. Then went to Fs, Myspace, blogs, blablabla.
I neeed to eat. Im starving! I dont eat more than 2 meals a day! Idk why.
My mum just asked me for my hair straightener.
Wow. This is the first time she actually wanted to use my stuff O.o
But i told her i threw it away cause the ceramic plates is alr rusty. Gahh.

I neeed to learn to draw so i can start designing band merchs one day. I've started on Ragdoll Epilogue wordings design and now im moving to, um. Murdered For Revenge i guess?
Its for fun la since im bored at home. Haha :)

I neeed to learn to draw gruesome monsters. So i can add them to the desighns later on. But seeing that i've failed to draw a simple cat, i'll stikc to the wordings first XD
I suck at drawing things but whatever.
haha!
now im watching some dumb cartoon that looks like clay. Oooh its Poco. What a dumb name but nevermind haha.

Okay you know what i think i needa sleep again i slept at 3.30 am yest. Couldnt sleep. Was having leg cramps and eating the thumbs up logo nut thingy. Gahh :/

Okay will update soon you muthafuckingnukkaaahssxsxsxsxsxz!
XD

How much do i have to curse your name?

hello :)
Its exactly 9.30pm and im still down with the bloody fever.
Boyf is at the Fad Media gig i think. Wanted to go but my mum wasnt home and therefore, cant ask for money. Sigh.
Well i woke up at 2.30pm then laze around, online, shower, eat, tv, draw stuffs, watch X Men (wth?? Repeated movie!), and now waiting for Army Daze to start on Okto. Now its Inside The Actors Studio. Very effin boring.
People, i need your help. Should i tell me mum i smoke? Cause when i asked her "Ma, what if i smoke?" you know what she said? "I send you to Pertapis." then she gave me that tell-me-the-truth look. And i just said "Oooh. I was just picturing bad situations in my head" * sheepish grin* then i walked off to the kitchen to grab a banana. Whew. Close one.
Gawd. But i cant bear to hide it from her anymore. And neither do i want to go to that Pertapis! Gahh!

Help! Nothing much happening today. Or rather, nothing happening today. Boredboredboredsxsxsxsxsxz.

Update later yaww nigguh.
Your pussies smell like sushi *kening naik naik*
Wtf! Rotfl! XD

Sick, very tired and swollen eyes.

Heylo nigguhsxsxsxsz X)
Its 12.35am now and i just reached home like 15 mins ago to find out my sister is asleep and my mum has gone out. Oh well.
Today was kinda boring. Met boyf at amk platform arnd 3 plus. Then went in the train again and headed to somerset. Walked around town and i felt suffocated. Lack of air and my head was spinning. Thanks you bloody corset for putting me in so much pain. Well kinda my fault too cause i wanna look slim and without my corset i'll look kinda plump :/
Walked around to far east and got bubble tea. By that time i felt like my legs were so numb, like no blood rushed through. Walked and walked to Taka and boyf bought his Mos Burger milkshake. $6.50 ehhhh ^^'
Then i couldnt take it any longer so we walked and was kinda pissed at myself then boyf got kinda scred cause i sorta screamed at him that i felt like fainting and its worse when he keeps asking me to remove the bloody corset. But come on, you want your girlf to be slim and slender, not faaaat right? Lol. So in the end, went toraffles city shopping mall and removed the corset. Mum, how can you stand the pain of the thing sqeezing the life out of you? Felt better and was hyped up alr. Boyf felt happy that im okay. Went to 7 11 and got slurpee. Then walked to penin to say hi to Finchy but he was busy so we stayed less than 3 mins there. Hah.
Waited for Liya and Zacky to arrive at Watson then headed to UOB. We were so hyped talking about Mitch and Nick that this 2 old looking ang moh, who i suspect were drunk, stopped and said to us "yeah they're really preety girls!" then he smiled. He expected us to turn around and give them our num or smth but good thing we didnt cause they looked like in their mid 40's and the way they say that freaked the living daylights out of me.
Walked to UOB and Mizam was there, alone. Like kinda weird uh. Haha. Bought some nin gassy drinks at 7 11 and sat down and smoked till like 9 plus. We were bored so me and liya decided to go camwhoring at fullerton bridge. Funnnnn dokkk ^^. Minus the two indian dudes who were staring at us. Fuck them la like never see girls before. Cb.
Did some really cool poses. Waiting for liya to upload them all then post them here XD
We came back to the usual spot at uob and we were so bored, people started leaving at 10 plus. Like woah. So early. Or maybe cause like later today theres a gig at FAD Media so they maybe gna get prepared or whatever.
Mimi was supposed to meet but alas, we were bored, tired, sleepy so we headed home.

Boyf, i love you and thats all i ever did. Its gonna be our 2nd month but i still find it hard to trust you. Not that you did anyhting wrong. But after my last relationship, im scred. I love you i really do. But taking in trust might take a longer time.
Thanks for everything boyf. I LOVE YOU X)

Okay anything just find me online okay. And im super broke. People. Donations, anyone? Lol. Kidding la ^^.

Nightey night you derangednukkaaahhsxsxsxsxz!
X)

Okaee go :D

Its 2.24pm and im waiting for 2.30pm to strike.
Gonna be a short post so yeah.
Plans is that me and boyf will be walking around orchard then at night head to cityhall. Maybe Liya might be meeting us.
Gonna be a boring day i bet :/
Yayy ive finally found a pack of ciggarettes! ^^ *jumps for joy and does the hula*
In my mums bag. She was showering so i secretely took it. Heh. Bad girl i know.
Im hungry. But nevermind. So gonna buy bubble tea later. The oreo one. XD XD

And i swear upon my relationship with Iszwan my fashion sense suck. Like i just put things together without seeing if they match. Oh well what to do what to do. I got my own style so yeah shut up.

Oh and i only have $3.50 today. Yayyy meeee (Y)

Sucks when i dont have a job. I need full time sales like nowwww!

Fuck you lee kwan you. Fuck your urge for huge american size hotdog lookalike dildos. Fuck you for your old but bimbotic till she goes down the grave wive.
Fuck you singapore for having so little full time slots.

And fuck you to the whole of singapore for hating my guts.
Thank you :)

Ok gtg now.
Toodless!

Mood : Bitchy.

Good morning rise and shine Stinkapore! X)
Its 7.42am and i havent been sleeping since last night. Dont ask me why i cant sleep. I really dont know why. LOL. Maybe its cause i felt an insect crawling up my leg and felt irritated which made me feel bitchy today.
Well fuck you fucking insect (or cockroach?).
Okay time to bitch. Not about my friends, obviously (duh.).

Im gonna bitch about my ex. Yes. You heard me. My fucking ex who treated me like his fucking dog. He made me fall for him hard. He made me believe all the shitty lies he told me. He controlled my every move. He decides who i can hang out with. Like who the fuck is he, my father?? (yes, line from 17 Again. Haha!)

And he is extremely immature. He has a mindset of an 8 year old. Gosh i cant even be myself when i was with him. I cant use my piercings when im with him, he doesnt like messy hair, which i find it sexy la.
Even my mom wasnt that controlling. In fact shes given up hope on me. Heheh. Ima bad dausghter la.
And when he checks my msgs in my phone and found any guys number, he'd make a huge fuss saying that i betrayed his trust and saying that im about to cheat on him and all that bullfuckingshit. And you know what?? He asked me to break my friendship with my own bestie, Ian. Why, you may ask. Cause he is a guy like what fucking bullshit is that.

Well im def happy i broke up withasshole. Im much happier with Iszwan cause he respects my space, my privacy and my friends. He may not have looks, but you know what? I found out that looks dont matter when it comes to loving someone.
If we were all to depend on looks, it would be a really scary world.

Okay i think ive bitched enough and im bored cause its so early and obviously, nobody reads my blog (Y).
So yeah im gonna sit on my bed and stone the morning away now.

I'll update more later nigguhhsxsxsxsxsz X)

Celebrity crushes are normal right?

MITCH OF SUICIDE SILENCE GIVES ME ORGASM LA SIOLL! XD

NICK OF AS BLOOD RUNS BLACK IS MUCH MUCH HOTTER THAN OLIVER SYKES OKAAAYYY! XD

haha okay off to sleep gonna dream of these 2 hotstuff. Nights bloghoppers and the world! XD

The writings on the wall.

Hell-oo X)
Its 9.54pm. Im watching the ending of a chinese drama and listening to A Day To Remember. I can multi-task okay.
Boyf still havent text me on about the plans tmrw. And im happy because its gonna be a weekend in a matter of hours XD
Theres a gig on sunday and Ragdoll is playing (i think? :/) but i dont think im going. Haha.
I love octupus takoyaki ^^ sedap oiii. Heh.
Okay the chinese drama end already and idk what show is on channel 5. Wait lemme switch the channel first. Heh.
Ooh its ghost whisperer X)
But i can multi-task better than you so shut up. Heh.
Oh oh and i've been eating alot of junk food. Like fish crackers and and lotsa bubble tea and like uh.. Uh.. Takoyaki?? Like alot la.
I think im putting on weight but i dont care. Fat or not, im still the same old me.
Okay da addicted, eyes glued to the tv already.
Update more tmrw aite.

Byee nukkas! XD XD

Friends mean everything to me.

Its 7.15pm and i feel sad.
I feel that my closest friends dont need me anymore. Excluding Dharsh of course. Gonna meet her soon ^^
The person im talking about is my 2nd most wonderful bestie. It seems that he's too busy to even nudge me on MSN or even send a text.
Why am i so emotional just because of a friend? He's not just a friend. He's like a brother to me. I dont think he knows how i feel right now. Most prolly he wont even bother.
Maybe he's too busy with school. Or family. Or girlfriend. Or his band, Unexpected Mercy.
Is it so hard to just nudge me or send me a text, to show that he still cares? I dont wanna lose a friend like him. Im crying as im typing
Idk why and i dont wanna know.
Maybe to him, losing me is no big deal as he has his other closer friends out there..
Ian, if you ever read this, which i dont think you will until i ask you to, please talk to me. Please tell me you still care. Please tell me im still your bestie. Please tell me losing me as a bestie is a huge deal to you.
Sigh
Imy, bestie :(

Aite gonna go to 7 11 now. Update later yawww X).

Set it off and let it burn

good afternoon :)
Its 4.20pm. I just woke up. Im still sleepy. Heh. Im half awake i think.

People, differenciate like and love.
Like is a slight crush. Nothing more.
Love is when you fell hard for that someone and decide to give your all for this person.

Just something random la. Im bored and i smell. HAHA!
Tmrw is weekends. Hope its gonna be fun with boyfriend X)
Once again, i need ciggerettes. *hinthint*
Anyone? Heh X)
Ohmyfriggingod its so hot here. Too bad my house no aircon. Mcm siak je. Pfft.
I just feel like walking around in my house naked O.o
Okay maybe not to that limit. Hah.
Gosh i've been dying to have my septum back. Tryna fit in the ring thingy but the hole is already closed i think.
Nevermind. I'll get a monroe next.
But keep delaying cause i cant find the stud, goddamnit!
Fuck you for running away muthafucking stud.

Okay nevermind gonna shower and do crap then at night i'll update again.

See you later bloggerrrrrrrsxsxsxsxz! :D

Taboooooo!

hihihi :)
3rd post for the day. Im blogging away my boredom.
Im watching Taboo on Okto. Its about Lepresy or something like that. Some kinda disease.
Its really sad to see people in Nepal suffering from that disease. They lose body parts. And they cant feel pain. Its disfiguring and the disease is known to kill. But even though they are disabled and all, they're independent. Even with the disease, they are still able to walk and do housework.
So we must be grateful for all the body parts that we have. :)
Hmm other than watching tv, im waiting for some of my friends to go online, so at least i can have fun and talk all kinds of crap.
Made a new friend. Her name is Nicole. My bestie's girlfriend :)
Shes nice.
Okay now im bored.

I miss boyfriend.
I miss Dharsh.
I miss Ian.
I miss Ika.
I miss Liya.
I miss Remy.
I miss Laurence.
I miss Billie.
I miss, i miss....
My dad.

Daddy, please come home.

Okay da.

update tmrw yaaah X)

Fucked and left for dead

2nd post for the day :)
Shall update you readers (not much people reading me blog ey?) what i did today.
Woke up at 1pm, showered, online, watched tv, practice my vocals, slept, woke up at 6, showered, stone, watched tv and recently, update blog.
Yeah weekdays are such a bore for me. No money, no prepaid, no cigarettes (Y)
Eh lets go hunt Mitch Of Suicide Silence down!
XD XD

Congrats to Jordii for getting a beautiful girl like Lolli. Last long okaayyy. Invite me to your wedding X)
When im online, nobody talks so yeah currently MSN is full of fucked up people. Whats the friggin point of going online when no one talks to you????
Nvm i'll go online at 11pm tonight.
Nobody talks to me, mengamok ah. Heh.
When im bored i tend to talk about things that bore the fuck out of people. Like hey hows your day? Eaten? Then thats it.
Seeeee! I bore people easily, thats wtff is wrong w me!
Gosh even my 2 most beloved besties dont talk to me online anymore.
Am i really that boring???

Ya know what i think im gonna get my fever again. This time without the migraines, i hope.
Gahh.
Gna go to 7 11 to get some stuff to eat. Most prolly also gna get bubble tea nearby ^^
Heh.

Ok da.

Update real sooon frepppps! X)

Oh god, please open your eyes.

heylo :)
Back to blogging. Heh. Was super sick yesterday night with fever, migraines and late at night, body ache. Like whaaaaat??
Oh and i made a new friends! Mondre, Liya and Remy! XD Fun buncha nukkas! Heh.
I need to work badly cause im always broke everday including saturdays with less than 5 dollars in my wallet. Fyuhh! Gimme a job! Anybody? :(
I owe boyfriend alot of money and hugs and kisses. Haha.
And i need cigarettes laaa.
I miss k.l, like seriously.
Ok shuddup. I miss dharsh and ian like fuckchibie la.
Dharsh, just tell me when you free i'll go down to yishun to meet you. But i dont want short meet ups la.
Ian, we havent been talking since, foerever. What happened?? :( and go pdate your friggin blog! Both of you!
Oooh i got to know my ex broke up w his girl. Hah. No girl can stand a guy with childish characters like him, i tell you. Muthafucka.
I've been drinking bubble tea coffee flavour alot nowadays. Hopefully i wont get diabetea. Heh.
Oooh! Now i know! I cant sleep early like before 2 everyday cause of misteri jam 12 and that coffee bubble tea!
Like, OMFG! Ah dont care. Heh.
I miss boyfriend so much. I miss my besties.(Dharsh, we better meet or imma go kill your mum!) i miss my new friends too!
Heh.
Okay i don really have anything to blog about except i got something against this girl from ite simei.
Fucking scenekid wannabe. Haha.
Sial luh shes not happy with me she want me to come down and meet her 'twincousins'. Like wtf would i wanna meet them for???
Fuck you, you deserve to rot in hell and i wish to hear your screams for mercy.
Just because i posted a comment that i dont really like her pic on friendster, she maki me habes2 with her long comments and asking me to talk to her face to face just because of the comment i posted. I didnt even post vulgarities, for gods sake!
I have nothing against scenekids and neither am i one. Its just whats with the stripes on the hair and irritating extensions that seem to fall out everytime you wash your hair???
Im not gonna bring this matter up anymore or make it worse. Neither am i gonna tego her when i see her outside with her ridiculous 'scene' friends.
Gosh, some people just need to fucking grow up.
I guess some people dont know how.
Oh fuck you fuck you fuck you.
I miss my dad. I dont know where has he been.

Ok da.


Update soon yaw!

K.L was awesome!

hello mafucksxsxsxszz :D
I just got to know a particular someone is attached.
Yay fucker yay (Y)
Ok the k.l trip is awesome laa. Minus the fact that i was sick with bad cough, flu and high fever. Jahh :/
I miss the hotel toilet. So clean laaaa XD
Okok shuddup fannie -_-'
I just ran out of ciggies! Who can help sponsor? Heheheheh.

i miss dharsh like cheebai. I miss ian bestie like some fucker. I miss ika like oarng utan lost in russia.
Cheebai la.

Ok this post actually goes out to boyf.

Spending time with you and your friends is the best i could ask for in life.
Love you for caring.
I love you for not expressing well enough.
I love you for not being possesive like my ex.
I love you for being so sarcastic and making me laugh my ass off.
I love you for all the things you've done for me whne i didnt ask for it to be done.
I love you for being a wonderful person in my eyes.
Im sorry if you've spent half your money on me for the k.l trip.
I wont go next time okay darl? X)
I love you for everything that make you, you.
I love you Muhd Nur Iszwan :D

Ok da.

i forgot this one! :D

This is another huge reason why im going to K.L :D

UPDATE!!!! Please read! XD

hello once again world :)

Im so excited. i changed the address on my ic w mum last night and when we were crossing the road to the police station, i asked her "Ma, so can i go to k.l with my friends?". She looked at me and said, "How much you want?" i said " around 50 to a hundred bucks?" then she said she'll give it to me next week :D
this may sound like its not such a big deal. People may think, its just malaysia. But for me it is cause my bestie lives there, might get a chance to see him. Ooh and the vox of ballad for layla too, wanjet or smth is his name. LOL.
And im from a financially difficult family so going past johore is a huge deal for me. And i thank mum for letting me go cause its hard getting just 50 bucks.
Yayy im meeting iszwan boyf this fridayy :D for our one month anni!
And i love my boyf very much thank you :D
Ooh and i adore my bestiess too much too :D:D


Thats all i guess.
Update soon about the sentosa trip thingy XD
Lovelove! very much, thank you XD

Okay thats all