The top floor is just an illusion

time check: 11.41am.
im up early and i cant get to sleep. hah.

hmm i seriously need to get a life. like get something to do. but i wont be working till mid august so this sucks when im always broke and i wanna get a job and actually work but i already have a job but im gonna be moneyless till september. hopefully, thats when my pay comes in. sigh. very the sian. lol.

and i hate asians. not those malay/indians/mixed asians. but the pure chinese ones. i guess im racist and a sexist. but its kinda contradicting cause you see im asian and im a girl so it doesnt make sense that i hate asians and girls. and when i mention girls i mean those skinnyass-flat chested-no butt-slit for eyes kinda girls. they look sick as fuck and no wonder i call them skateboards. cause they are flat like one.
and they think they're the hotstuff. they think its so cool and fucking trendy to be skinny and have 'nice eyes'. well your eyes looks like a pussy to me and you people are anorexic like fuck.
if you're born naturally skinny, go eat more you dimwits. and do whatever to gain weight. cause MAJORITY OF GUYS PREFER GIRLS WITH FLESH RATHER THAN SKIN AND BONES.
i was born skinny but im proud to say i've gained weight. i stand a 174cm/178cm or a 5"8 and i weigh about 62kg/68kg. its gonna be 70kg soon but yeah i dont really give a fuck. people tell me i look skinny but i feel fleshier. LOL.

my aunt calls me fat and i went 'errr.. so?'
i dont want to 'fit in' where everyone looks the same, talks the same, acts the same. cause its so motherfucking cliche to do that.
i dont wanna be a clay mould to perfection. cause being perfect isnt what i aim to be. i'd rather look like some
alien from whatever planet rather than look the same like everyone else. thats so fucking old la people.

so stand out, for all you know you might be respected by others although you cant see it.

its all about respecting others and people respecting you. cause without respect, you are nothing.

ps: i have no fucking idea what i just typed out. if you guys get what i was tryna say then good for you :) if not then go get a dictionary. if you dont like it then jolly well fuck off.

k da bye.